It makes me feel like money doesn't have a heart
I'm the farmer's wife. I like homemade things, and sometimes I make bread jam, pickled plums, tsukudani, etc., and give them to my friends.
It's the feeling of “sharing.” There are things we can't eat at home, and there are times when handmade is rare in this day and age, so there are times when I want people to eat it and enjoy it.
The other day, I baked homemade natural yeast bread, and since there were a lot of them, I gave them to a few friends.
Some people brought sweets, and others gave me flowers.
However, another friend said, “Will you pay the money? How much?” I was asked, and I was in trouble.
After all, I like making things by hand, so I do it. I just want people to enjoy flavors that can only be made by hand, and the value of money is irreplaceable.
I told my friend, “Please buy something next time,” and they didn't receive the money.
This kind of thing has always happened before.
Every time I do that, I feel resistance, or emptiness, to be told “with money...” It's not that I don't have a heart, but something doesn't make me feel refreshed.
I want money, and I'm not making it, so I can't receive money or value it (put a price) on it.
What should I do to feel better about this?
