I want to die...

Nice to meet you.
I'm sorry for your busy schedule.
It was painful, there was nothing I could do, and I just wanted to spit it out, so I wrote it.

There have been a few things I'd like to discuss for a long time, and I've registered,
Right now, I'm just writing to try hard to stop myself from wanting to commit suicide.

I'm sorry I ended up talking to myself and not being the subject of the consultation.
From someone else's point of view, it's really stupid.
I'd rather die. Also, there are many people who would be happy if I died.

It would be nice if it died, but (although it's a private matter) my beloved cat, who died of illness at a young age last year, stopped me from committing suicide by crying desperately 3 times during her life, so I can't commit suicide...
Because suicide is “killing” yourself. Also, don't commit suicide for the sake of my deceased beloved cat who saved my life...

I'm too depressed right now, my feelings are too confused, I don't seem to be able to talk properly step by step (I feel like I'm in a storm), and my blood pressure suddenly rose because I put up with too much anger and confusion, and my physical condition became strange, such as dizziness, so I couldn't write specific details, and I wasn't able to write specific details, nor did it become a “question”, so I'm very sorry...

4 Zen Responses

I read it.

First of all, what I know for sure is that you are now, you want to die; it's painful, painful, and sad.

I just lost my father to suicide in July.

I don't want you dead.

Due to the nature of the question, I wrote it in a hurry, so I think it's short and not enough, but please live.

Gassho
Namu Amida Buddha

Wanting to die actually means wanting to live.

When I was a student, I wanted to die, so I was overwhelmed.
Recently, I've been receiving phone calls from girls who want to die.
Those who came in person stopped dying.
Better yet, if you don't mind at our temple, I'll go ahead and talk to you.
If you're alive, that's OK.
That was all I could see when I wanted to die.
When I didn't want to die, oh, was there such a way to live! I wonder if this was the idea! I was surprised.
My answer here is the entrance.
Real time questions and answers are my real medical examinations.
I stopped having 3 people die this month.
If you like, please come listen to stories that will make you want to stop dying in order to fulfill the cat's wishes.
I want to die because I have become a resident of a world of imagination.
Being a resident of a world of imagination without dealing with the scenery that the naked eye sees in real time or today's brand-new events is the cause of the most unhealthy state of mind.
Buddhism doesn't love knowledge like philosophy.
I don't love thoughts, memories, or images.
I love facts, but it's Zen and Buddhism.
Please come to the temple to go from thinking to factual thinking.

There must be something we can do, postscript

There's something everyone can do.
There must be something you can do too.
For example, take in even one animal waiting for euthanasia at a public health center and save it.
Please don't belittle yourself.
You should do your best every day to do what you can.
Is there anyone who would be happy to see you die?
Isn't that your assumption?
If that's true, don't make such people happy.

appending
Thank you for your concern. It was shaken by the earthquake, but luckily there was no damage.

Are you still sad about Coco? They were like family, so I take that for granted.
How do you feel during the memorial service?
It depends on the denomination and the monk, but during the animal memorial service, I said, “Next time, be reborn as a human. Let's meet again somewhere.” I'm praying.
I hope you pray like that too.

If you talk directly with a monk, the denomination is different from mine, but I think it's easy to go to a temple in the same prefecture because it's close.
Why don't you talk about it?
If you don't mind calling or emailing me, I don't mind.

We are always here waiting for you

I read it. It's so painful that it's worth dying for, isn't it?
it's very painful, isn't it? I understand your feelings.

Nevertheless, I sincerely hope that you will live.
There is no storm that won't pass by. The storm in front of me will be very severe, and I think I'll do my best.
But I hope you can stay alive even if you nibble on a stone.

Your relationships are connected.
I would like to hear from you again.
We look forward to welcoming you here at any time.

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