Determining the time of death

Hello, Miki.
What is the thing that comes down to me
Everything makes sense.
It is life that surpasses them one by one.
In the midst of daily efforts to surpass that
The meaning of being alive shines through.
Don't blame your weakness for your illness
Please look forward.
The pain only increases when you look at your illness from a distance
Please be brave and face the disease head-on!
That is what it means to be alive right now.
This is what we call day by day (day by day)!

Determining the time of death. As a result, with your own “life”
If it means being able to face it, that's a good thing
I think

We don't even know when we're going to die.
Tomorrow, no, my heart will suddenly stop. hit by an accident,
This is a common story.

So, living one more year without suffering means
I wonder if that year will be all about how “to live with care”
Isn't there one? That's because it's impossible to decide when to die.

Then, when I dedicated myself to “living well,”
It's also about how you and others are swayed by “your own circumstances”
You'll notice it.

To live well is to live “just the way you are.”

“I don't have that either. I don't have this either.”
What breaks my heart by searching for “something that isn't there” that is convenient for me
I'm not taking good care of my life.

Live with a fixed period of death. It is
Find a way of life that is very important and suits you very much,
Wouldn't it be great?

Miki-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

There seem to be various physical problems, and it is really painful.

I also read your previous question.

Of course, I think that physical disorders are fraught with various functional decline problems, but there are cases where it is necessary to restore immune function and restore detox function in order to cure the disorder and improve self-healing ability.

Also, it is conceivable that symptomatic treatment for symptoms that come up every time is not a fundamental treatment.

If problems appear in various places each time, it is desirable to think that there is some root cause and work on treatment.

For example, a decrease in adrenal function due to changes in hormonal balance can also be considered as the root cause.

Anyway, please do some research and think about things to improve your self-healing power.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

Miki-sama
Hello. I took a look.

I felt from the text that the emotions that had been held down for so many years were overflowing. In particular, your relationship with your family probably weighs on you as a burden to the bottom of your heart. Don't you have feelings of “I wanted you to see me,” “I wanted you to accept my feelings,” “I wanted you to be loved,” or “I wanted you to believe just the way you are?” Imagine your parents and imagine the “words you want them to say.” I think those are the words Miki wanted.

I know it's rude, but I think your parents lived with strong anxiety in their hearts. Or maybe their parents weren't on good terms with their parents either. People with anxiety cannot afford to accept others. Far from it, they try to look away from their own anxiety by becoming indifferent or hurting someone in a weak position (child) nearby. It's not that you're worthless; you've “believed” what adults and parents said. Because children want to be spoiled, adult language is easy to bind the mind.

To accept yourself is to acknowledge your weak self. I'll listen to the feelings I've been holding back, saying, “I wanted you to accept it.” Then, it's about becoming aware of the mind that was caught up in “expectations.” You have been able to live a strong life in such a difficult environment up to this point. That strength is real. Then I came across the Buddhism called Hasunoha. I am convinced that the Buddha did not abandon him.

“That was hard, but well, the Buddha is with me.” Please try tweeting during hard times.

I wrote something tough. Start living your own life instead of living a life bound by other people's words. It's not easy at all. You might need to be prepared. Why don't you take a step forward? I'm rooting for you.

Gassho