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I want to change my timid self to love due to illness

I have a rare congenital disease called neurofibromatosis, which causes bruises and warts all over my body. It looks bad and is inherited by children

As described above, no matter what, I don't have the courage to go out with men.

In the past, there were men who kindly said they loved them, and men who wanted them to go out with them.

But in casual conversation, when I hear that they like kids with pretty feet or that they'll cool down if they remove makeup, they won't like it if they look at my body, or if I have this kind of body, they'll be scolded for saying it first... I was scared and scared, and I just ran away and didn't even go out with them.

Conversely, even if you have a man you like, you won't be able to express your feelings yourself.
It makes me think that I have this kind of body...

I'm just running away.

But I don't want to talk about my illness in detail to someone I haven't even been in a relationship with... but hide it, and if I go out with a man who has fallen in love with me and confide “I actually have this kind of body,” I feel sorry for men... I wonder if men are unlucky.

I want a boyfriend and I want to get married.

I'm really worried that there are men who will fall in love with even if they have this kind of body.

But... even if there is a man who can accept this kind of body, if you have such a chronic illness, your partner's parents will object to your marriage...

When I think about a lot of things, it makes me extremely sad, the self that I think I have to give up, and the self that I don't want to give up, I want to change, and I want to gather courage and take a step forward.

I hate sickness.

Is it OK for me to want a relationship or marriage even if I'm like this?

I want to gather my courage and act, but I can't

Please give me some advice.

4 Zen Responses

If you increase your encounters, you might find a dramatic love.

First of all, if you have the opportunity to interact with many people of the opposite sex, there may be someone you love and cannot help but confess.
The reason why there are so many people who are married even if they have illnesses or disabilities is probably because they were blessed with such encounters.
Certainly, when it becomes difficult to have children, the hurdles for marriage are high, but there must be men who don't need children but want to get married, or who don't want to get married but want to have a relationship.
Also, there are people who have children, are divorced, and have remarried and are happy.
Some of my relatives and friends have remarried and succeeded.
Therefore, there is also an option to go out with a man who has children.
First, why don't you put off gathering a lot of courage and increase your small encounters?

How to overcome illness while being sick

Illness is something you become more and more emotionally sick by excessively recognizing yourself that it is an illness and strongly adding negative images to it.
Therefore, not pouring too much of your feelings into bad things is the best way to get rid of the suffering of illness.
“If you are sick, and in order to surpass the suffering of illness, you should look at this now and forget about your eyes.”
Now, when I'm looking at this screen, even though there are eyeballs and displays, they probably weren't overly recognized as such.
Forgetting your legs while standing and forgetting your hips while sitting is a relief.
No matter what kind of intractable illness a person has, there is no problem when they forget their illness.
Even for people with cancer, there are people who become negative, and there are also people who are more energetic than healthy people who deal positively with the disease.
I've also been suffering from gastrointestinal problems for a few weeks,
I try not to add feelings of “illness” or negative thoughts to the current state.
Rather than an illness, I think this is ❝ something like that ❞.
There are people in my family who have serious illnesses.
They have had 3 children and are living well.
I'm also suffering from physical illness.
Even if my body is sick, I'm not overly aware of illness, and when I was reading this now, there must have been a time when I wasn't aware of such a thing at all. 24 hours a day — that doesn't mean you're thinking about it. Let's take advantage of forgotten powers rather than when we hold them.
If you can grasp that for a long time, you can also grasp other things, so I think it's good not to think too pessimistically or negatively.

What's inside is important.

Nice to meet you, Mr. Smile.

It is said that he has a chronic illness.

It seems to be an illness related to physical appearance, so women in particular may not feel positive.

But is your appearance the most attractive thing about you? Or is it inside?

Among the people I know, various people have married healthy people and have happy marriages, such as those whose husbands are completely blind, those whose wives have leprosy, and those whose husbands have Down syndrome.

Of course, I think there are people who judge that person by looking at their appearance or illness.
This is very unfortunate, but don't forget that there is always someone who can take a good look at you as a person.

As for children, it is certainly a disease with genetic abnormalities, so there are concerns about maternal and child inheritance.
However, according to research, the probability of inheritance is 1/2 for type 1.
This means that it is not inherited by half of the children.
It's the same as the probability that a boy will be born or a girl will be born.
If you're worried but really want children, there is also a method called adoption.

People who get married due to their appearance or social style cannot be said to be a good marriage from the beginning, and please shake off such men from you.

There will surely be a man who will properly look at the person you are and fall in love with you just the way you are.

Take a step forward with confidence.
You should polish yourself thoroughly.

You'll lose if you don't choose me.
Please be such an attractive woman.

let's go with a smile!

Smile-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

I would like them to gather their courage, smile, and work on romance and marriage.

We have received the following questions about genetic diseases before.

The question “kids, kids? About”
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/826

In my humble response, “... regardless of whether we have an illness or disability, we are really ephemeral and vulnerable. However, we humans have succeeded in preserving “seeds” by supporting, helping, and sharing with each other. I have stated “...”

I would like you to be happy by meeting good people who can firmly support and help each other.

It reminded me of the song that would be a cheering song for Mr. Smile. You may already know this, but...

“There is an answer in a smile,” let's go with a smile!

“Smile smile”
Ayaka Hirahara

Don't show me my tears while laughing
If you think of people, I think you're the strongest

People who have more pain
Because it's funny

Smile smile
fine
Even if I feel like I'm going to lose because I'm hurt
Make everything smile
Let's get started with the real you

What does becoming an adult mean
It's not about forgetting
The feeling of thinking about someone other than myself
I mean to get stronger

It's OK to work hard is good
You can leave it as you are

Yumemu
Lost days
Not a single thing is meaningless
What kind of future do you envision?
Embrace who you want to be!

My hidden tears are seeping into my heart now

Smile smile
Don't forget
Believing that you are loved
Said it was painful and it made me sad
I want to laugh from the bottom of my heart

Smile smile
fine
Even if I feel like I'm going to lose because I'm hurt
Make everything smile
from there or let's start

Yumemu
Lost days
Not a single thing is meaningless
Let's hold warm hands
I'll hold you tightly the whole time

Smile smile
It's new
Let's walk with the heart we have now
I want to believe I want to love you
There is an answer in a smile

... that's all.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho