hasunoha

I can't switch my mind...

I have a job I want to get. To do that, you must pass an exam. So I spent my school life doing a lot of hard work in order to pass the exam. The kids around me were hanging out in Tokyo and making boyfriends. There were times when I was envious, but I was studying so hard. However, the results were unsatisfactory.
Of course, I know that there were a lot of people who worked harder than me, and people who were smart. Also, there are still a few exams left, so I think I should work hard for them, but I feel that “it's useless no matter what I do anymore,” and I don't feel like studying.
Also, if you fail the exam after this, it will be a job similar to the kid you've been playing with until now. If that's the case, it makes me feel bad that I should have played more.
Even if you end up in a job you don't want, I think it can be fun in its own way, and I also know that studying becomes my own knowledge, so it won't be wasted. However, unless you get the job you want, you're unlikely to feel like you've been rewarded.
In my life up until now, I have cherished my efforts. Of course, it has paid off. But there are many things that didn't pay off. If you make an effort, you won't always be rewarded, then it makes me feel that it's not a waste to work hard, and that there's no point in living seriously. I'm sorry it's been so long. To sum it up, how do you switch your mind when your efforts aren't paying off? I look forward to working with you.

4 Zen Responses

The world is full of unreasonable

The world is crazy about not being the result of hard work. Rather, that may be more common. The same goes for work. As far as I know, there are very few people in the world who only do the work they want to do. So what should we do?

Anyway, I'm going to do my best to do what I've been given and can do now. If that doesn't work, I'll try it in a different place/environment again!

Dogen Zenji explained that it was just meditating. →This is just my interpretation.

But... it's important to work hard, but it's also important not to try too hard. When you run away, I think you should run away with all your might and do your best on the next stage at your own pace!

What do you worry about even before you take the exam

Kitasama

Thank you for studying for the entrance exam. I think it's great that you're working so hard for the job you want to do.
If you don't accept... Something like me...

I don't understand that kind of feeling, but if you have a job you want to get, this isn't the time to just worry about the future that's yet to come. I'm just earnestly doing what I have to do now. Results will follow later.
Whether you get rewarded or not will only make up your mind later.

Don't worry about falling after you've fallen. Please do everything without running away from what you need to do now so that you don't think about anything and have no regrets.

Please do it until the end. I'm rooting for you.

“If you make an effort = you will be rewarded” is second after two

To the one who came

Right now, too, I know that they are studying hard to pass the exam.
Please do your best to believe that this effort will be rewarded someday.

Now, I understand that Kita is unreasonable and not everything.
However, there are many people who are not being rewarded, even if they work harder than they have done so.
It is natural to work towards a goal, and I think whether or not to be rewarded is secondary.
What form you get rewarded in may be different from what you think, but you will definitely be rewarded.
They say “I made an effort,” and that is different for each person.

In those words of Sadaharu Oh
“Is there anything that doesn't pay off for your efforts? Even if it doesn't lead to results, I think the fact that you've made an effort will definitely come to life. If that doesn't pay off, I don't think it's an effort yet.”
There is such a thing.

Sadaharu Oh says it, so I think there's no doubt about it.

Is getting rewarded the way you want?

Good evening, Kita-san.

There are a lot of things that didn't turn out the way I wanted either.
It was so full that I forgot about it.

But think about it.
Everyone in this world other than myself is someone else, right?
Other people gather and work hard with each other to make up this world.

Now, in a world made up of other people, how many things go the way you want them to be?
It is all others who judge my actions, evaluate, praise, acknowledge, scold, and complain about my actions.

With that in mind, you can see that there are overwhelmingly few things that go the way I want.
Everyone in this world lives in a world composed of other people.

Whether I've been rewarded or not, I'm the one who decides whether I'm happy or unhappy.

From your point of view, even people who have had boyfriends and are playing around may actually be making some effort in their own way to do that.
I tried dieting, researching makeup, working hard on my part-time job to buy clothes I liked, and maybe I was attacked by my boyfriend over and over again, and maybe we were finally able to get along.
People around you can't see that, and even that may be quite an effort for that person.

Studying isn't the only thing I'm serious about.
They say serious about working sincerely on what is right in front of you.

I will study seriously. I take sports seriously. I take my part-time job seriously. Have a serious relationship...
Depending on that person, the value standard of what is right in front of you is different.

If you work hard on your studies and want to get into the job you're aiming for, why don't you aim for it over and over until you get a job?

Aiming to be a bureaucrat, I wanted to be a doctor, I wanted to become a lawyer...
There are only a handful of people who pass the exam at once.
Even if they failed the exam, they tried over and over again to aim for it, and I've seen countless people finally pass.

Wouldn't it be nice to take on the challenge as many times as you like without compromising in a workplace similar to the kids who play when they fall?

If you haven't been rewarded, there haven't been any results yet.