Fiancé's Suicide 2

Thank you so much for your answers last time.

Compared to that time, I have a feeling that we have come to terms with his death.

But it's so sad.
When I eat a meal or go out for a change of pace, I get a little lost, but when I suddenly become alone, before going to bed, when I wake up, etc., I feel really lonely, and I feel really depressed.

While I was thinking about what he was doing now, whether he had attained Buddhism, I wanted to meet him, etc., I felt lonely, and tears overflowed.
Then, I imagine that if I could go back to that time... etc., I couldn't go back to normal anymore, and I felt sad again because I thought he wouldn't come back.

When it's bad, I can't stand this loneliness, so I think I'll die even more, but that's impossible for me.

What should you do when you feel depressed like this?

4 Zen Responses

I recommend Nembutsu

I am a member of the Jodo sect.
You don't need to go to a temple and ask a monk... You should act. Please sing “Namu Amida Buddha” with your mouth.
until when? It's until I get bored.
Feelings change, as you notice. There are times when I'm lonely, and there are times when I'm distracted, and I feel comforted and happy when I notice children's smiles. “Which one is real?” It's not. All of them are real, and the real intention is that they change.
So, the question is, “When this kind of feeling springs up, how should I get through it?” I interpreted it as. That is “praising Nembutsu,” which I mentioned at the beginning. As you continue to act and act, your feelings will change. Also, I will accept myself as my feelings change. It's definitely not heartless; it's a natural appearance.
In response to the previous question, “If you work every 7 days, why don't you join me?” There was that. I work the first 7th, 27th, 37th... and the 77th until the 49th. Make regular “time to remember him” in your daily life. If you turn it over, it's also an exercise of “returning to everyday life when that time is over.”

I don't clean up about life and death

It seems like the world is opening up beyond my expectations.
I wish it were like this, or I don't like this world! There have been various claims about... or other thoughts, but nature is quiet regardless of such thoughts. The mountains, rivers, and trees are quiet, and they don't claim anything.

Humans evaluate even such nature as good or bad, likes and dislikes, but even so, nature doesn't complain; it's just that.

Actually, humans are natural too. If you take a look at how this body works, you can see it. It's nothing but nature. Then I live my whole life, let go of my thoughts, and go back to nature. Me too. When this body stops working, let go of it and go back to nature.

The world that can't be measured with thought is bigger. It's spacious. Originally, I think we humans live there too. On the wider side. Let's live broadly. Let's notice something unexpected.

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