I can't stop playing with men

You've been having a hard time up until now.

The role of the temple's wife is more heavy work than the chief priest thought, and I understand that due to the intertwining of other factors, it has led to the current environment.

Maintaining human balance is very important.

However, don't think more positively than necessary.
I also felt like you weren't taking care of yourself.

The original cause is the relationship with your husband, isn't it?
I think it's also important to be able to discuss this with your husband once.

As a result of discussions, if you still think your husband isn't satisfied, it may be okay to leave it in this state.
That's for you to decide.

However, you may lose your mental balance as a result of being too reckless and not taking care of yourself, so please be careful about that as well.

As long as you are the chief priest's wife, please do your best to serve the temple and Buddha.

As you know, Buddhism is the Buddha's teaching to become a Buddha. This is because if you become a Buddha, you can live a happy life without worry or suffering.
Also, I taught them to keep a number of commandments in order to become a Buddha.
By keeping the commandments, we get closer to the Buddha, and by breaking the commandments, we move away from the Buddha.

You have broken many commandments.
Even if you only look at the commandments of immorality, you are breaking not only your own commandments, but also your cheating partner. It keeps many cheating partners away from the Buddha. It is unavoidable that in the future, we will receive various consequences due to that behavior.

You probably think it's mentally balanced, but is that really the case?
Since your right hand hurts because you hurt your right hand, isn't it a way to balance and hurt your left hand too?
Originally, an injury to the right hand must be treated.
They seem to be in balance, and in fact, I think they are suffering more and more from pain.

Talk to your husband about the root cause of caregiving and family issues before it's too late. And I hope the affair will stop.

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If my wife is in the same situation as you, I think we'll talk about it. Buddhism is a teaching that explains the theory of cause and effect. I would like to work with my wife to think about what is the cause and whether there are any solutions.

Note that none of the answers were beyond your imagination, but most of the answers were originally Buddha's teachings. It is also written in the oldest sutra, the Akon Sutra, which is said to be close to the Buddha's direct words. I'm worried that not being accepted will lead to not being able to accept the Buddha's teachings, and in turn, not being able to accept the Buddha.
Nonetheless, there are also teachings that can save you. For example, the Jodo sect is based on the teaching that if you chant nembutsu, Amida Buddha will save you.
If your temple's denomination is from the Jodo sect, please chant Nembutsu regularly.
I hope you can practice ascetic practices again in the Pure Land of Paradise and become a Buddha.

I read it.
I see... I was surprised for a moment. Yes, even those in the temple are human.
If you're dissatisfied or stressed with your current life, you may run like that. What's more, since you know the Buddhist precepts, the depths of your heart are probably always swirling with feelings of loneliness that aren't satisfied. I understand your feelings.
Nevertheless, please stand firm, face your own feelings, and look back on your own actions first. And please face the Buddha. You probably won't be able to face it slowly in the midst of the hustle and bustle, so please set a time and face it to your heart's content.
Then, please sort out your thoughts.
It is up to you to decide whether or not to deal with your husband afterwards.
It would be good if you had a firm face to face and consult with them, and that might not be the case.
There will only come a time when you will pay for those actions.
It's about sharing your feelings clearly at that time.

If you repent about that act, I think both the Buddha and your ancestors will listen carefully and forgive you.
Also, depending on how you think, your life will change drastically from now on.
And the cause will also be settled firmly.

I sincerely pray to the Buddha that you will sort out your thoughts and face the Buddha with an honest feeling, and that you will continue to grow healthily as a Buddha disciple.

　Hana, I read the content of your question, but I think it's really difficult to keep a temple, and I feel that the relationship with the parishioners (disciples) is difficult, and I feel that it is difficult because there is no chief priest and relatives are being cared for. I understand the feeling of wanting peace of mind, but once you talk to the chief priest, I think it can be resolved. Gassho