Jodo Shinshu, Soto, Shingon
Excuse me, the title is meant not to be seen by a certain monk.
It's a consultation.
I'm from home, but I was lucky enough to have mentors and monks. That teacher, monk, and friend told me about the fact that I'm recuperating at home at my parents' house due to mental illness, that I don't know much about my medical condition, that I don't use the excuse that I'm disabled and recuperate at home at my parents' house, live alone, disappear if my parents don't allow me to become independent, and that it's OK to annoy my parents by disappearing when I become an adult.
They told me that in order to leave my parents' house, get a job, and live alone, the judgment of the workplace manager or attending physician is necessary, so don't use that as an excuse.
I know you should be independent, but isn't it strange that you disappear because of that and you don't mind worrying about your family, because you're an adult?
My mentors, monks, and friends are all being hunted down with opinions like those described above. My friend treated me like a child and made a bunch of taunts, and even though I apologized, there was no apology at all.
According to the teacher and monk, true filial piety is to contribute to society, not to cause concern to parents, so it is okay to disappear and make the family worry. People with disabilities who recuperate at their parents' home, don't work, and don't contribute to society are all filial.
Not all people with disabilities can leave their parents' homes, because their medical conditions are different from person to person.
I was also told that when I'm depressed because I feel betrayed, my ability to get angry at the point of being betrayed is small.
I cried a lot by myself. Because of this incident, my auditory hallucinations, which had been cured until recently, have recurred, and my heart is in turmoil. I'm still crying while writing this.
Am I funny?
What do you guys think?