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Pyonko-san
It's been a while.

When I think I'm going to die

What's going on with breathing?
Aren't your fingertips shaking?
How is your heart beating?

Assuming you are 155 centimeters tall and weigh 45 kilograms
Pyonko only has 1200 cc of brains to decide to die.

It's only about 1/40 of the total of “Pyonko-san.”
When you make up your mind
Can 39/40 of your whole body watch you through to the end?
Does breathing become disturbed or calm?
Are your fingertips shaking nonchalantly, or can't you gain strength anymore?
Is your heartbeat pounding or sinking?

I don't know how it's going, but they must be sending some kind of message all the time.

There is someone who has been watching over you since a long time ago and will support you behind your back no matter what happens in the future. Right there.

Please ask “Pyonko-san.”
Please don't abandon her.
Until she noticed the message.

I read it.
I really want you to live. Now and in the future.
because you are irreplaceable.
It's probably true that you feel so desperate; there are times when you think why you have to live in a world like this, and you probably want to run away from a place like this.

Still, you're worth living for. Your life has a meaning and purpose.

I used to work as an office worker in Tokyo. As a middle manager in a company, I was blamed by customers, superiors, and subordinates every day, and I pushed myself into a mental illness. I tried to get rid of my suffering and jump over and over again on the Yamanote Line that I go through every day.
But I still couldn't do it. I was drugged and my body and mind were like rags, and I couldn't even walk. I couldn't even stand up and go to the train anymore while watching all kinds of evil spirits and fantasies.
And then I was taken to the hospital. I think something stopped me at that point and stopped me from jumping in.
I thought that no one would know anything about me after getting rid of that suffering, and even now, there are parts that I still think about.
Still, I'm glad I'm alive now. I sincerely hope that everyone can overcome that suffering, survive, live a happy life, and be saved by the Buddha because it is a life they once thought of abandoning.

There is no shortage of suffering, but there is always a way for everyone to live happily and smoothly, and be led by the Buddha.

I sincerely hope that you too will be blessed with that relationship and that you will live a rich and fulfilling life from now on.

There are situations where you can't understand unless you've suffered, but that's why you can find a way to be saved and be led.

Please enjoy this relationship and live through your life.

I really hope for your future.

I want to live, but I'm tired of living... I think the spiciness is something I shouldn't talk about, and I think the pain is something I can't even imagine. But if you are exhausted from living in the same way, I think I can sympathize with your suffering a little bit. I'm worried that people who were exhausted from life in the same way at Hasunoha will be reading Your Heart's Cry today as well. Other than the monk who answered, I will tell you that people who read Hasunoha and help support your mind are worried about your mind and body, as an unmistakable truth.

Hello.

I've read most of the questions that come up here, but there are times when I think “I'll answer them later,” and later I don't know which question it was. (In my spare time, I read questions on my smartphone, think slowly, and answer them on my computer. (I'm not good at smartphone input)

Actually, among the questions I read yesterday, there was a person who added “I'm glad Pyonko-san came back” at the end of the question... (I thought it was the person who called out to Pyonko-san before, but there were no questions) I certainly read it, but even if I looked for it now, I couldn't find it, or if the person himself had withdrawn the question. Too bad.

Also, the regular customer here says “well.” The person named Mr. also uploaded a message that seems to be addressed to Pyonko-san, although he did not give Pyonko-san's name (there was a monk who was introduced in response to the previous question) https://hasunoha.jp/questions/20761

Anyway, I can clearly see that not only the monks, but also the readers here care about you. This kind of thing is rare. Pyonko-san is amazing. It's kind of inspiring to have someone take care of you.