About killing living creatures
Hello. I used to be in charge of baking at a small bakery, and I used to bake bread every day. We use yeast for all of our breads. As I worked every day, my interest in Buddhism grew stronger, and I began to think that I was burning a large amount of bread yeast to death. I now feel a strong sense of guilt that the yeast moisturizes, warms it, gives it sugar to feed, splits sufficiently, and then burnt to death all at once in a hot kiln. I think the job of buying bread and making customers happy is very wonderful.
However, even more than that, I began to feel that the burning work I was in charge of was a heavy crime, and I was struggling in my heart. This isn't the cause, but I changed jobs and now I have a job that doesn't kill living creatures at all. Even though I still have this mental conflict, I'm still living today.
Recently, there has been an aversion to real fur. I thought it would be terrible to strip animal fur and leather. Ideally, I would like to live my life using drugs and synthetic leather that have not been tested on animals.
I think it's unavoidable that even if you avoid them, creatures that will be sacrificed somewhere beyond your reach will appear. I try not to use leather products to the extent I can, but recently I received a cowhide pass case as a present. I've been avoiding it, but I have no choice but to use it. I am grateful to have received it. Cowhide is a by-product of meat, so don't worry about it. I've heard that opinion, but isn't it contradictory? I think so. It makes sense to use it without waste, but what is the monk's opinion...?
It also feels similar to that, but there is some resistance to using mold sterilizing spray. If you make the area around the water unsanitary, your health will be affected over time, and you have to use it to some extent. It's an everyday thing, so I worry about it every day. Do monks ever use disinfectant sprays like this? Also, I'd like to hear your thoughts on using it. I'm sorry for the long document. Thank you for your answers.
