I want to improve my fear of death

I read your question.
For example, even if an ideal society without war or hunger comes, the suffering that befalls “me” will not disappear.
This is because death is a fundamental human suffering.
The fact that they are clearly aware of tanatophobia means that coping therapy has also been tested.
Originally, I think quite a few people have a potential fear of death.
I myself have been manifest since I was a child, but fear of death makes people who are easy to be humble, and it makes them have a sincere attitude towards their own lives. I have a positive view that it enhances the quality of life by using it effectively.
So, there's no need to mislead them, and I don't think it's something we should look away from.

However, if you just can't stand it, why not become a monk.
As you may know, Buddha came out of fear of death from old age sickness coming upon him. Just like you.
There are so many Buddhists who speculate that the Buddha might have died by suicide if there was no way to become a monk.
On the verge of his death, the Buddha remembered the places he had visited so far and said, “It's beautiful. It's fun.” That's what I was told.
By seriously studying Buddhism and living in Buddhism, you may be able to overcome the fear of death in the same way as Buddha.

If you are interested, you can inquire about priesthood on my denomination's website at the following URL.
https://www.myoshinji.or.jp/faq/307

appending
It's just my guess, but until now, you've probably bet on hasunoha, in other words, Buddhism because various coping therapies have not been effective.
You can still learn Buddhism as it is now.
But wouldn't that be the same for you as the coping therapy you've been doing so far?
Somewhere, it is necessary to change everyday life 180 degrees up until now, and to live in a changed everyday life, and I could only think of a monk, so I recommended becoming a monk.
Also, if you become a monk and enter an ascetic dojo, food, clothing, and shelter are guaranteed.
If your time allows, think it over carefully.

appending
There's a character limit, so why don't we email each other? Please feel free to contact us at the address below.
spt27549@coast.ocn.ne.jp

I read it.
I understand your feelings and state of mind very well. I sincerely understand your feelings.
I've been suffering from fear of death and loneliness, just like you, ever since I was in elementary school.
I've weakened now, but I've always lived with that kind of feeling.

As Master Yanagihara said, I would like to learn the Buddha's teachings from you and become a monk.
It may be difficult to become a monk right now, but I think it would be nice if you could learn Buddhism little by little.

There aren't any immediate answers.
Nevertheless, there will be plenty of hints as you learn.
Then, little by little, I think you'll be able to see the path you will be freed from suffering.

Please know that there is a way forward rather than running away from oneself.

That's because it's a strange relationship that you connected with us here.

Please let me know how you feel now.

And let's learn together little by little.

Fear of death can be destroyed.
You should make it clear that you are not afraid of death, but that you are scared by secondary thoughts that arise when you think about death.
There is nothing good or bad about death itself.
Even the food I ate today gave the precious life of plants.
There are times when people get better when they die.
In extreme terms, people will be happy when unscrupulous politicians, heinous criminals, war leaders, and even tyrants die. If death were to die, the Earth would overflow with humans and “trouble.”
Both the pirates in Pirates of the Caribbean and JoJo's Cars are in trouble because they can't die.
“Even if I wanted to die, I couldn't die, so Cars stopped thinking about it.”
Now, these can also be said to be a kind of imagination about death.
Death itself is just death; there is nothing good or bad. This is because even unscrupulous funeral directors rejoice at death.
Even in the monk's world, there are even unreligious people who make the death of people a business.
On the other hand, there are also monks who can give dignity to people's death and lead both deceased and living people to enlightenment as much as possible.
I'm also working on you to get rid of your fear of death in this way, but the quickest way is for you not to leave for a world of secondary thoughts
The mind is not healed by a psychiatrist.
But that doesn't mean the monk will cure it either.
You must not allow yourself to turn your own mind into trouble, sickness, or darkness.
I didn't even think about that when I was a kid. I enjoyed playing every day. There are also people who enjoy playing every day, even when they become adults. You should be too. You can get used to it.
It would be nice if those hints and answers would make you not have secondary thoughts about death. Why don't you think people suffer mischief thinking about death even though they are alive?
It is said that death and the sun must not be watched, but the answer as a Zen school that recognizes enlightenment is to clarify death, eliminate misunderstandings and anxiety about death, and be able to break even if you think negative things about death.
The view is based on the fact that zazen meditated, developed meditation ability, and left thoughts, but the view is an immovable heart that is not fooled by thoughts. Death is not a scary thing to die.
Death is my mind bothered by my secondary thoughts about death.
If you have a chance, go to Toyama Zen Association. Let's open up the Dharma and Seigen and blow away fears about death.

You will die someday, this is natural law.
No one can escape.
But that doesn't mean you have to be scared.
You were born on this Earth.
It's part of the Earth.
Before you're born, alive, and even after you die, you're a part of the Earth.
It hasn't changed.
I'm not alone.
Your ancestors, your family, and we have all been together the whole time.
So please don't be afraid.
Don't worry, your ancestors will surely guide you.
Let's trust our ancestors.
Trust your ancestors who gave birth to you.
If you feel anxious and depressed again, put your hands on the Buddhist altar and ask the Buddha and your ancestors.
I asked you to guide me.