If I kill myself, will I go to hell?

“If I commit suicide, will my soul go to hell?”
Yes, you are right.

I'm sure it's so painful for you right now that you think “it's better to die.”
However, if you commit suicide, you will have severe regrets saying “it would have been better to be alive”... fate awaits you that you will have to continue to suffer such nasty treatment that you cannot keep up with any of these words for an astronomical time that seems like an eternity...

“I haven't thought about my surroundings since I was a kid”
The fact that you're still alive today is proof that there were people who thought so hard about you.

“Even now that I'm an adult, I can't really be close to people's feelings”
The fact that you're still alive today is proof that you always had one person on your side.

“That made me feel so much trouble and disgust.”
The fact that you are still alive today is proof that you have been forgiven.

“I've already left a letter to the person who took care of me”
There are people who took proper care of me.

“I also wrote what to do with my personal surroundings when I die”
Proof that you have someone special that you don't want to bother with.

“All that's left is that I'm sorry that I died before my parents”
Proof that your parents' love was well received for you.

It's fine. I have everything. I'm sure I'll be able to live (laughs)
If you commit suicide, it's hell. But the way you live is hell if you hate your incompetence.
Then why don't you leave it to someone else's Buddha called “Magokoro”?
If that doesn't work, that's fine.
I'm going to go to hell anyway (laughs)

I read it.
Are you in deep pain right now? I sincerely understand your painful feelings.
I have a question
I'm not going to hell just because I committed suicide.
They go to hell because of the bad deeds they have committed.

I sincerely trust the Buddha and ask the Buddha to save me, lead me to paradise, and the Buddha will never abandon Namu Amida Buddha and those who take me to nenbutsu. The Buddha will always lead you to the Buddha, and you can be born in paradise and feel truly at ease.

Your mind and body are probably in a very difficult situation right now.
First, please rest your mind and body well, get a good night's sleep, and heal your mental and physical fatigue by taking a leisurely bath.
And please calm your mind for now.
Your life matters. You are living in connection with many people and things.
There may be painful suffering, but please put that suffering aside for a while and try to calm your mind slowly. Also, please take your time and take a look back at your surroundings.
There are probably people and things around you that are very important to you.
First, please live by taking good care of your own life, your life, and the people around you.

There will always come a time when you will live to the end of your life. There's no need to worry about it.
Please take good care of yourself and your life now.
Also, please sincerely ask the Buddha that the Buddha will guide you when you complete your life, and that the Buddha will save you from all suffering, and please be quiet with the Nembutsu.
Namu Amida Buddha Namu Amidabutsu

That's because the Buddha will always guide you when you have reached the end of your life. Then, you'll be born in Buddha's paradise and feel at ease.

Please don't worry. And please be sure to complete your own life from now on.

I sincerely pray to the Buddha that you will face the Buddha with an honest feeling, that you will spend every day feeling pure, and that you will be guided and saved by the Buddha.

Shishin Gassho Nanmu Amida Buddha Namu Amidabutsu

Nobody died and no one came back, so I don't know.
However, the Jodo sect recommends death in the Pure Land of Paradise (the Pure Land built by Amida Buddha) after death.
It's easy to do that.
All you have to do is say “Namu Amida Buddha” (namu amidabutsu) with your mouth and think to your heart that “you can pass away.”
No matter what kind of sinner or villain you are, if you do nembutsu, you can pass away in paradise with the power of Amitabha Buddha.
In the case of good people, they can pass away with their own strength (merit), but since it is difficult for bad people like us to pass away on their own, they are forced to pass away by Amida Buddha's power (other powers).
Namu Amitabha's nembutsu gives a happy ending to a life called Osho Gokuraku.
There may be people who misunderstand that the Jodo sect and the Jodo Shinshu are dark sects that only think about things after death,
Rather the opposite, if you do nembutsu, you don't need to worry about the afterlife (afterlife), so all that's left is to think about this world.

I'm not saying it's okay to commit suicide because you can go to paradise,
Even if you commit suicide, it's fine if you keep doing nembutsu. I hope it makes you feel even a little cheerful.
When you do nembutsu continuously,
“Namu Ami Dabu Namu Ami Dabu Namu Ami Dabu”
You can do it at a constant rhythm.
The speed is free.
Try it even for a few minutes.
Also, it doesn't matter if it's only once or only ten times.
Every time I do nembutsu, Amitabha reminds me of you.

Porunga-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

If Porunga thinks “if you commit suicide, you might go to hell,” I would like to recommend that you stop committing suicide.

Well, whether or not you go to hell due to suicide is not determined by “suicide,” and it is influenced by how the motives and state of mind associated with the act of suicide (in particular, whether it is due to worry or not) are also influenced as factors, and it is also determined by suicide itself, and it depends on all the work (karma) in this world, or on causality (due to unusual maturity) by synthesizing work from past lives. I will.

In extreme terms, even if you commit suicide, it is possible that you may also be born as a person, or even go to the Pure Land, depending on the overall (maturity) state of your work.

Anyway, the problem depends on the state of the business (karma).

If you don't have confidence that you'll never go to hell, you should just quit committing suicide.

Rather than that, I would like to recommend that you work on Buddhism, which is the cause and effect toward enlightenment, which is clearly a good result of losing your hesitation and suffering, little by little, even now.

The road of a thousand miles also starts from one step. The road to paradise also starts with a single step. Let's take a step forward.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho