Life is at a rock bottom

What is the reason the president is holding you back from changing jobs? Thinking for you? the president's convenience?
Is it because my salary is low that I don't have any money? Is it because I splurge a lot?
How many hours of overtime do you work per month, and do you get overtime pay?
There are many things I don't understand, so I can't say anything, but if I continue my current job, I think it's better to ask the president for improvements in terms of salary, holidays, and benefits on the premise that I will continue.
If you end up quitting your current job, I think it's better to change jobs early and find your next job. A promise to return the borrowed money in installments would be necessary, though.
Please talk to your colleagues, people you have relationships with at work, people around you, parents, siblings, etc.
There are times when you can't decide your own life, but isn't this the life you've decided?
Isn't this a life where your past self decided that time was the best choice?
However, I decided it was the best choice at the time, but now I don't think it was the best; isn't that all?
Life is like that. I often regret it later.
The rest of your life depends on you.
I don't know if things will work out in the future, but please follow the path that you decide is the best choice for you now.
However, please make a decision by listening to lots of opinions from various people, including the president.

You've been suffering for a long time, haven't you? There are probably things like in-laws, human feelings, and stubbornness. Also, I don't fully understand the situation you're in, and after all, it's your own problem, so I can't say exactly what to do.

However, many things are intertwined, and I get the impression that this and that are a mess. It's common for everyone to get lost in their head, so I think it's a good idea to sort out the problems by writing them on paper.

Also, as a general theory, I think it's okay to try exercising while sweating, or try mindfulness, which is currently popular with meditation based on Buddhist Zen. I think both are simple and can be expected to be effective.

Once the flow of thought is sorted out, you will naturally be able to see how to solve problems. Please sort out step by step whether it's good to work at your current workplace, whether it's good to change jobs, what problems are there if it's the same as before, and what happens if you change jobs. If it's good to use a diagram, try writing it out as a diagram; if you like a sentence, write it out as a sentence. Even bullet points are fine. You can ask someone to listen to it.

Now, since debt creates interest rates, it is better not to fall into multiple debts. Please plan and implement specific measures before the wound gets bigger. When I was a student, I worked a lot of part-time jobs and got into debt with money. I paid it back in 3 days, but there was more interest than I expected. Don't let your debts grow. I also think expert advice is effective in dealing with these issues. Please go to the office operated by the government, or look for an expert on the internet who can help you with consultations.

What exactly is causing you pain?
debt? Struggles with the president?
Or is it because of the environment?

I feel like none of them apply to me.

You're hurting yourself.
That's all I can think of.

You are hurting yourself by blaming your surroundings.

I'm constantly worried about my life, but is life something I can control myself?

You don't think you are who you are right now, but which one exactly are you?

Even though you exist there.

I don't think life has any meaning.
Maybe the only way to live simply is.
Put everything together, everything you want to deny, and everything you're too sad to do.

Because even if you shank, there's nothing you can do about it.

Right now, you're trying to balance yourself by hurting yourself.

I won't answer anything bossy, but please praise yourself.

I thought you did your best.

Hello TKM.

Life is at a rock bottom, isn't it? Once you're aware of that, all that's left is superior. If you're willing to die, don't think about the end of your life, improve your work life, and move forward.

If you have been stopped from changing jobs even though your company's income is low, ask for a salary increase. Also, it seems that you have debts, but please make a firm payment plan and make a plan so that you can improve your life. It's a simple thing you can do if you feel like dying. It seems that they have left their hometown, but if their parents can bow their heads, it is also necessary to lower them and make an effort to lose interest rates even a little bit by lowering them and borrowing money. If you have been stopped by that president, one way is to ask for a no-interest debt. It's important to completely discard your own appearance, etc.

Now is the time to change yourself. There's still no need to give up on marriage. Seriously, work hard, and even women who love you will come out.

We will support you, so please contact us at any time if you have trouble. Good luck! Gassho