I want to decide the day I die and live

I read it.

A person's life cannot be decided by oneself.

That longevity is something that is given in a variety of circumstances.

People are always walking towards when they die.

While experiencing various things, I think they will find out how to live and die in life, how to live in the present, and what it is to live while repeatedly asking themselves questions and failures in various encounters.

I and my surroundings are constantly changing, even in the midst of casual everyday life. Yesterday's self, today's self, and tomorrow's self are constantly changing. And it's changing while being connected to various things.

It is the teaching and truth of Buddhism: impermanent conduct, no laws and no selfishness, and nirvana silence.

Maybe they were born to understand and learn that truth.

If you don't mind, I sincerely hope that you can live by looking at the state of such things and yourself in your daily lives.

Every kind of life is full of ups and downs.
Your life is actually full of turbulence, even if you think it's casual.

That's because they exist while helping each other in an important once-in-a-lifetime relationship.

I sincerely pray that you will be given in various circumstances from now on, and that you will be given to others, and that you will walk through a rich and fruitful life together from now on.

Nice to meet you. Thank you for your support.

Your “thoughts” aren't crazy. Of course, “yourself” isn't strange either. And you don't need anyone's permission to live.

I think people like you seeking euthanasia have surfaced in particular since the Zama incident. I often see such opinions on social media.

However, even in countries where euthanasia is permitted, clear and strict requirements are set, and it can be seen by investigating that it is something that cannot be easily divided if anyone wishes.
For example, in order to determine that one wishes to die based on one's “free will,” mental illness such as depression is almost always not subject to euthanasia.

Now, however, it's not strange to feel at ease in the future where you die, to seek death, and if possible, to decide on that day.

Isn't that because it's really tough and difficult right now, and you're fighting so hard with the feeling that you can't do your best if you haven't scored a goal?

There's no denying that feeling.

However, that feeling was not caused by your own complete “free will,” and it is probably a feeling that has sprung up from various relationships such as hard work and depression.

So that feeling is something that can change.

If you don't mind, we would be happy if you could continue to ask questions here at hasunoha and discuss your thoughts about what you've been hurt at work and how difficult it is right now.

When we face a reality where our “thoughts” and “thoughts” are so unbearable, we find a sweet sound in “death,” but I don't try to stop living by accepting my “body” and this “life” as they are.
Cells divide, the heart pulses, breathing takes the next breath, makes you hungry, digests, and your hair and nails grow; it's all about trying to live.

Your “idea” is undeniable. But your “thoughts” aren't the only you. I want you to wake up to what your whole is really hoping for.

Learn Buddhism and get even one step closer to enlightenment.
This is the joy and joy of life.
You were lucky enough to have the chance to discover Buddhism.
Why don't you learn techniques to control and eliminate the causes of worry and suffering?

I think that's the meaning of living.

Yomi-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

The meaning, reason, and value of “life and death” does not exist as an entity that can be said to be “this is correct” or “determined by this,” and it depends on various causal relationships (causes and conditions) in “life and death,” and also gradually depends on the cause and effect of each person's own mind that captures that “life and death.”

Depending on those causal relationships, both good and bad can be captured, so maybe it means that your current causal relationship isn't very good...

Anyway, don't overdo it, don't try too hard...

Now, if anything, people originally think that meaning, value, and reason are neutral. Also, depending on a good causal relationship, it can also be good, so if you are conscious so that you can gather good causal relationships, do it that way, and don't fall into too pessimistic or nihilistic...

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho