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I think you looked it up too, but when you search on the internet, various sites and problems hit. I see, this seems pretty difficult.
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https://www.kouenirai.com/kakeru/column/business/fujii_career/2266
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https://president.jp/articles/-/23080?display=b
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http://lohasmile.net/891
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https://m.chiebukuro.yahoo.co.jp/detail/q1255455487?__ysp=44GT44KT44Gr44Gh44Gv44CCIOOBhuOBoeOBruaXpumCo%2BOBr%2BeuoeeQhuiBt%2BOBp%2BOBmeOBjOOAgeWFiOaXpeODhuODrOODk%2BOBp%2BWFg%2BWls%2BWtkOOD koodRoudVoodNoodQ%2bebo%2beDO%2boBruafs%2bacroEBO%2beDO%2bobjooagewls%2baAAP%2boBruw%2fgw%3D%3d

For now, let's leave the work to our subordinates as much as possible. You're just a follower and coordinator. If you don't have time or feelings to spare, you won't be able to do that.
Don't die.
It's too early to decide that you can't do it in six months. That's because it also says 3 years on the stone.
You may be far from your ideal self, but the path of a thousand miles also starts with one step, so please walk one step at a time towards your ideal.
You should let go of your pride and work in a dignified manner without fear of being ashamed.

appending
Your death won't solve anything.
Next, the person who took your position suffered the same suffering and went bankrupt, and the person after that was the same, and it continued for a long time.
Go home when you've finished your night shift.
You don't have to be able to do your job.
That's because work hours are over.
Please take over the necessary work to the daytime shift.
If someone from above tells you that you haven't been able to work, simply answer that it's because there is too much work, so please increase the number of staff.
If you don't say that, the management won't think about increasing the number of staff.
Please change the way you work starting tomorrow.
Managing one's own health is a job where the top priority is given.

I read it.
You shouldn't die of it.
You're so exhausted right now. And I don't like everything, and I hate thinking about it to the point where I'm sick of it.
You just don't have any room for your mind or body right now.
First, let's keep a little distance from that. Also, please take a good rest. You may be in a situation where you can't rest, but even so, please take a day off and rest your mind and body. Let's relax about work.

Your life, life, and life are more important than that job.
Please leave it to someone else. And please let go of your tension.
You will definitely be able to recover. And you'll be able to regain your original mind and body.
It's fine. Let's leave it up to others.

Previously, I also worked as a manager with many female subordinates.
It was so painful and exhausting that I really couldn't put it into words. Then, while going to the hospital, I worked, and continued taking stabilizers and sleeping pills. And my mind and body were in tatters. After that, I couldn't even walk.
So I changed my job after that.

There are things that are not suitable for people, and there are also timing and meetings from time to time.
After all, there are times when it doesn't fit, and there are also cases where it's not suitable. That's because we're not omnipotent.
You can stop it.
You don't risk your life at all.

Again, you must not die.

I don't know right now, but you have a future and a happy life.

I sincerely hope that you will be able to recover both mentally and physically and live a slow and peaceful life from now on, and I sincerely pray that your future will be healthy and prosperous.

And I support you from the bottom of my heart!

Please take a good rest first!

I also worked in the medical field before, so I understand a similar situation very well.

Bad talk, harassment, strange unity... I was really puzzled at the time.
However, there are more than a few people who have no choice but to pretend to be friends, so if you can cooperate well with such people, it will be much easier, but if it's so bad that you die, please open up again.

If you quit in this day and age, something will happen. Actually, I quit and changed jobs right away.

However, if you look at it calmly, you can also feel that they are desperately trying to somehow put Mr. Maruo, who is the manager, below him.
I don't think there's a problem if you just do your work quietly without being able to take advantage of your opponent's strategies.

Maruo-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

Your field of view may be getting a little narrower...

It's common for a small world to become everything and we're cornered.

I have experienced it in my humble years and up until now. Club activities when I was a student, a monastery during my ascetic days, or my own temple, home, etc...

I once thought that if I could look more outward and be flexible in my thoughts, I could avoid being cornered.

Also, they may be overly presuming that they are causing trouble. Originally, we can only exist by helping, supporting, and sharing. Here, before you get exhausted, I recommend consulting with your workplace about whether to quit and change jobs, create a support system, and further increase leisure time and refreshment.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

　Thank you for your question. I can fully feel that I'm having so much trouble at work. After all, it means that easier is better for humans. I understand how difficult it is, but I think the harder it is, the more calm the work should be. I work for people other than monks, and I sometimes get really scolded, but if I do my best with the intention of looking back, it's interesting; what I'm thinking now is that I want to properly rebuild the main hall of a temple affected by the disaster in Hokkaido. I think I should do my best in the future. Gassho