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These are worries. Yes, people who doubt doubt themselves. I'm just doubting that there is no point in doubting because of that person's weakness of heart. So you can just leave it alone. Your promise wasn't withdrawn because it was your fault. It's just that the other party didn't have the ability to keep the promise, so the promise just disappeared. There's no reason to work for someone who doesn't have the ability to stand on top of such people. Even samurai in the old days have no obligation to serve such people.
There are all kinds of people in the monk world.
At the ascetic dojo, “I listen to what first-year newcomers say, thinking every word is a lie.” There is also a senior who professed. “Why are they punishing you? That's because I feel like that.” There are also people who said that. There were times when I was beaten endlessly for showing off to people who went up the mountain later. (Corporal punishment has now been completely abolished, though.)
Even now, to monks of that generation, I say, “If the person above says that he is black, the reason it becomes black without any factual confirmation is less than a certain socialist neighboring country in terms of organizational soundness.” When I said, “Huh? Is that so?” There are a lot of people who look like that.
When I was a kid, I was sometimes told this by an old man I didn't know on a high-speed SA while nitpicking at me. “Is my dad a monk? Your dad is the worst person to be happy when people die.” I said and did. “You who bully elementary school students because you can't speak ill of adults directly is the worst, even if that seems like 10,000 steps away.”
My homeroom teacher when I was in the 3rd and 4th grade of elementary school was married to a follower of the biggest cult in the country, and he was always leading and interrogating me to try to elicit stories about monks smelling fishy.
My high school chemistry teacher also started talking about “The boy loves money, so my uncle gave the boy a golden bug basket as a memorial service (doya)” without any warning during class.
Well, I can't write enough to list them, really.
But all of these are worlds unfolding within those people's heads. That person's heart is that color, so they just think that way. So there's no point in me getting hurt. However, I just think that if I use it this way from time to time, it might be a little useful for the world and people.
It's fine if you don't take it seriously.
It's an adult through skill (click).
