More than salvation

Your work is a great job.
It's a great job saving those who suffer.
I myself have been hospitalized several times, and each time I have been saved.
Thanks to all of you, we are where we are now.
Don't forget that.
You should do as much as you can, just do what you can, and that's all.
Tell people around you that you can't do anything you can't do, even if you're embarrassed or your pride gets in the way, and leave it up to the people around you.
Tell people around you that you don't know what you don't know and ask the people around you.
Never take on a job alone.
Please talk to customers when you go to work. Let's ask how things are going today.
You are dealing with customers, not your subordinates, not your boss.
Please be kind to your customers.
Please focus on what you can do for your customers.
The relationships between subordinates are second.
Please take a close look at the customer.
First of all, I think that's the most important thing.

My life, which was a series of doubts over and over again, was all meaningful. He brilliantly played the leading role in his own drama.

Nothing in this world is meaningless.
However, those who commit suicide are unable to escape the fog of confusion.

Gassho

Maruo

Even if Maruo dies, tomorrow should come to us, and we may not be able to be sad because we don't know that he passed away.

I'm sorry. It says something extremely objective and cold.

Why do you write that you want to die here?
If I really wanted to die, I could have thrown myself into the ocean a while ago.

That's because you yourself are desperately working hard and enduring your life. It is proof that they are desperately trying to live even though they are in a delicate balance between death and life.

That's why it's so painful.
Talk to someone about even a little bit about that pain
I want to vent out my conflict.
You're trying to rely on someone here for that, right?

Maruo, why don't you first abandon your ideal self and say you rely on someone close to you, someone at work, or someone in your family?

There's no shame in depending on someone.

Suicide is insanely painful, and insanely painful.

I couldn't do it either because I didn't have the courage to die,
Now I think I'm glad I didn't have the courage.

What I wanted to do, what I left behind, what I felt sorry for
Is there really nothing?

Please throw away your strange pride and start throwing up more and more of your inner fuzzy.

[Postscript]
I didn't have the courage to die either.
I'm sure someday the day will come when I can laugh.
First, please rely on someone.
It's fine here too, so feel free to use whatever length you want.

that's not it.

that's not spoiled. wake up.

＜Additional Notes＞
“I don't even have the courage to die”
That's right. That's why, after all, you're admirable when you've gathered up your scarce courage to live.

I'm not just afraid of “death.” Don't you have a proper sense of how bad it is to die meaninglessly while being empty? This is a precious thing.

＜Postscript 2＞
“Realizing the meaning of life doesn't mean you won't die”
It's not your head. I'm talking about the body itself.

Maruo

You may also be examined by a psychosomatic physician once.

I'm a little worried about bipolar things.

Maybe you need a little rest.

Don't overdo it.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

In the Jodo sect, they say Namu Amida Buddha and Nembutsu, and if they wish to pass away in the Pure Land of Paradise, they think that person can pass away in the Pure Land of Paradise with the power of Amitabha Buddha when they die.
And everything is impermanent. Since people don't know when they will die, I try to call (sing) the “Namu Amida Buddha” nembutsu every day, and I also call (say) the nembutsu every time with the intention of the last death.
If your life is extended as a result and you can do nembutsu tomorrow, that's fine.
This is because nembutsu is also one type of Buddhist practice (good deeds), so if you do nembutsu, the merits of good deeds accumulate (good habits are formed in the heart).
Who is Honen Shonin, the founder of the Jodo sect in Japan
“If you live, you'll have the merit of Nembutsu, and if you die, you can pass away in the Pure Land, so there's nothing to worry about in life or death.”
It is said.
Namu Amitabha Buddha is not only a way to die peacefully, but it is also a way to live peacefully.
We walk along the path of Namu Amitabha Buddha heading to paradise.
On the left and right sides of that straight white road, there is a river of greed and a river of fury fire. Both are torrents.
Waves of greed and anger fill us when walking through the white path, and we quickly fall from the white path into a torrent of greed and anger.
However, it is strange to call it Nanmu Amida Buddha there.
The traveler (heart) instantly teleports onto the white path. You can get away from intense greed and anger.
We are carried away by a torrent of greed and anger every day, and we should go back to white path with “Namu Amida Buddha” each time.
When “I want to die,” it's a torrent of anger (disgusting, annoying, sad) against reality.
Don't worry, let's go back to Hakudo with Namu Amida Buddha.
No matter when you die, you can go to paradise, and when you're alive, you can go back to white.
It's fine.

Also, it is written in books that people who are doing nembutsu are picked up by Amida the moment they die, so the moment they die, they are freed from the suffering of death.
Seizure pain seems to be suffering that occurs at the moment of death in a place called sugematosis, which looks like pressure points on the whole body.
Nembutsu practitioners also have suema, but since Amida removes the pain that occurs, they can die peacefully.

I read it.
Are you having a hard time being alive?
I sincerely ask the Buddha that you will live your future life with peace of mind, and that after that, you will always be led by the Buddha and be reborn into the Buddha's pure land, be saved from all worries and suffering, and have peace of mind. And I will do my best to be quiet with Nembutsu.
Namu Amida Buddha Namu Amidabutsu

Please do your best to ask the Buddha to save you too, and please go to Nembutsu!

Your wishes My wishes will always reach the Buddha.

The Buddha will always guide you when you reach the end of your life.

Please believe in the Buddha for the rest of your life, face the Buddha from the bottom of your heart, and be gentle with Nembutsu.

I sincerely pray to the Buddha that you will live your entire life with peace of mind from now on and be saved by the Buddha.

Namu Amida Buddha Namu Amidabutsu