Good evening Minori. Thank you for your wonderful question. It was a question I'd like to read many monks' answers to.
And it's surprisingly healthy (laughs) I envy you. My digestive system is really weak...
Well, do you want to live a long time or not? If I wanted to do it, I would say why, but to be honest, I didn't immediately think that I was like this.
Of course I don't want to die right now, but that's not the case when it comes to wanting to live a long time.
When I studied Buddhism to a certain extent, there was a time when I thought, “Oh, I'm not afraid to die anymore.”
But that was a mistake. Now, in a sense, I'm getting more and more afraid of death.
What I felt like I had overcome was the “after death” problem; in other words, it was an ideological “death” (like only in my head), not a “real death.”
Death comes with old age and sickness. There may also be cases of accidents.
It will also be accompanied by various pains, suffering, and painful feelings. The “real death” that lay in front of me when I came into contact with the circumstances of various people was very scary at the age where I felt that kind of thing realistically.
I myself am a Jodo Shinshu sect, but I don't believe in the Pure Land (Paradise World) as an ideal place to be reincarnated after death. (As for my current faith)
However, if we call that state where everyone is equally greeted, just as all rivers are facing the ocean — even though we have no idea what it is — the Pure Land is a fact for us regardless of whether we believe it or not. You'll be there sooner or later, so there's no hurry.
There are things I want to do now that I'm alive.
It means being saved together with many of you. The salvation of Mahayana Buddhism is not personal to me, and it is not true salvation unless I and you are saved together.
Also, in the Pure Land Shinshu sect in Mahayana Buddhism, the savior is not me, but Amitabha Buddha. I am on the side that can be saved no matter how far I go.
Therefore, I would be happy if I could ask for Shakyamuni's teachings with many people and take care of Amitabha Buddha's salvation together.
I want to be saved along with Minori and Minori's daughter.