I read it.
It's a tough job, both physically and mentally.
Also, managing your health is a difficult job, so please take good care of your physical condition and take care of yourself first.
I don't think I'll get bad feelings or lose momentum, and I don't think I'll be hit by a bee.
If possible, I think it would be preferable to calm down and explain the situation to him.
Please take care of yourself, the people around you, and your daily life.
I want to wholeheartedly support you.
If you're planning to get married, I think it's better to stop if possible.
Nonetheless, if possible, I think it would be better to have a firm conversation with him and make an agreement so that he can understand.
Please think carefully about your future with him.