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I'm afraid of getting close to someone and it's unbearable.
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I think everyone feels that way. It's understandable that you feel uneasy.
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if someone is unhappy with me or dies
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I think that's an excessive assumption. “God of Plague” is written in the title of the question, but there is no natural plague god. Depending on their words and actions, people can become like Buddhas, and they can also become gods of plague.
Dokin-chan has probably read a lot of books, and I think she was able to read the answers from the answering monk more carefully than I did. In Buddhism, “For something to have some kind of outcome, it depends on cause and relationship. I think you know that they say “causal effect.” As is the case with me, Dokin-chan wasn't born with any special abilities to make others unhappy, did she? There is no natural “god of plague.” However, in our daily lives, we sometimes inadvertently make gaffes and rants. It's rare to take lives, but there are more than a few cases where people hurt their opponents with gaffes or rants.
The response for that is Japanese face love language. It's about smiling softly and always saying thoughtful words to those around you. Needless to say, it's not as simple as saying. It's not easy to put it into perfect practice. Precisely because it's not easy, they swear to Shinto and Buddha to practice “Japanese face love language” every day, pledge to themselves, and strive to put it into practice every day. Let's talk to ourselves about Buddhist practice and work hard at Japanese face love language.
If you work hard at Japanese face language, Dokin-chan will never become the god of plague. However, not everyone in the world will properly accept Japanese language. There are also people whose minds are twisted or distorted. Well, that kind of person is the god of plague. Stay away from people like that and keep your distance.