I can't gain enlightenment
I've abandoned my obsessions, and I've almost thrown away my friends, lover, and stuff.
I'm in agony every day because even when I'm alive, I can't get a satisfactory answer even if I ask questions here.
There is nothing left now other than letting go of the obsession with life first.
But the suffering won't go away.
Every day is disgusting, and even if I let go of my obsession, it's still painful.
It was said on this site that if you keep putting up with 1 second, you can endure it, but what peace is there in a life that continues to endure?
All you have to do is accept the bad things, let go of your obsessions, throw everything away, and die yourself.
There are a lot of things I don't like even while I'm not dying.
It's still painful to accept it so much, to not be moved by anything, and to just accept the suffering as it is. there's no such thing as enlightenment anymore???
For example, my parents were killed right in front of me, and it's still painful even if I let go of my obsession on a whole level.
I want someone to help me.
Isn't there no such thing as enlightenment?
I'm a science nerd, but isn't it impossible to be liberated once I die?
It's not just the difference between being born unlucky or being good.
If you have an intellectual disability in your brain, it's impossible to get rid of it in the first place, and similarly, if your natural intelligence is low, you can't even think highly.
If you are lucky in the world, you will die satisfied with this world.
In other words, there was no liberation or enlightenment, and people who had bad luck in this world just came up with that kind of concept because they regret losing, right?
ah, the meaning of life is too unclear.
I wonder if they will continue to be preached by various people, or they will continue their lives like this after being refuted with vague expressions... And I wonder if people with vague expressions will die without getting any answers as they are.
