I want to start over with my boyfriend who was swamped

Yes...
I understand his kindness after breaking up.

Let's break up and see what he thinks.
He, too, will come back to his senses if you have any regrets, but only he knows that.

How about spelling out your feelings even in an email? One time only. (Because if you send it too many times, it will be annoying)
I'll wait to hear from you.

So why don't you just shut up and wait.
Even so, if you haven't heard from him, his feelings have already left you.
I have to accept goodbye.

One more time, finally, leave him a message.
I hope it gets through.

I read it.
I think you were also so stressed that you just hit that person so hard.
Let's take a short break and relax.
Also, try resting both mentally and physically until you can calm down and think calmly.

After that, take a good rest and calm down, and then take a close look at yourself, your situation, your personality, and your current life.

Take your time to think about your thoughts, life, and future.

Let's review what's important to you and who's important to you.

It's a very important time for you.

I'm indebted to you.
After I drafted my answer, I was worried for 3 days about whether to answer it. it's probably going to hurt Yoko-san no matter what. Still, I think someone has to say it, so I'll answer it.

Can we get back together? Instead, how do you change yourself? Isn't it?

What does it mean to apologize?
I think of it as a “declaration of self-transformation.” “I'm not going to do 00 from now on. Please keep an eye on me in the future. It doesn't matter if you're satisfied to ask for forgiveness.”

> Kindness and compassion... short... it makes me take it for granted
Did these words really come from your heart? “You take it for granted to be kind to them, right?” What did he say to you, and didn't you just write it here?
I mean,
> By treating them selfishly due to stress
Even when it came to this point, the cause was “stress,” and “I thought what I did was bad. → This is because I felt that the “let's apologize” flow wasn't established.

And by treating him in this state
> In the end, it was one-sided over the phone...
I missed that chance, which would have been my last.

I think I have no choice but to give up.

The reason I felt “one-sided” during the phone call was probably because “I didn't say enough.”
So what couldn't I say?
Isn't this the “real feeling I want to apologize” on the other side of the excuse? I think they “regret” not being able to convey this.

But it's “past.”

When we talk about goodbye, we think about the awful “other person.” It's the same as or more than saying “please stay with me.”
Also, I think the fact that he is talking goodbye on the phone to the present age where it is OK to just write “let's break up” on LINE etc. and block it is a sign that he took care of you even when he parted ways.

Shall we respect his kind decision?

This breakup “cannot undo a relationship that has changed.” It taught me an important thing.

However, new relationships can be created.

To that end, why don't you think once again about how to treat people without wasting the “regrets” you learned by paying a very high tuition fee of “losing someone special”?
Otherwise, even if you get back together, even if you go out with someone else, it's likely that you'll follow the same path again.

I said tough things, but only if you think of it as an opportunity to grow.