My parents were divorced.

　Kotonoha-san. Teenagers may have the ability to sensitively sense people's feelings and emotions.
The other day, when I went out to eat with my relatives, the seats were divided into 2, and in short, children and adults were seated separately, and when I told them to order what they liked together, adults ordered what they wanted to eat, but they ordered hot pot dishes and sashimi platters so that all the children could eat it. At that time, I was wondering if children were really immature and adults were mature, and I was reflecting on it.
It would be nice if you work in this pleasant direction, but if the result is to push yourself, I recommend that you attack your child's privileges, emotions, cry, and rebel. It's troublesome when it becomes a strange habit, but once in a while, if you promise not to get along, it's fine. This is also an exercise in conveying one's will to others. When you're young, learn by experiencing mistakes over and over again. If it's someone you trust, I think it's okay to tell it. Taking it to the grave without saying anything is also a life experience.
Generally speaking, the majority of marriages, divorces, and remarriages are decided by adult circumstances without thinking about children's feelings. What you should think about right now may be terrible, but even under any circumstances, what kind of adult do you want to be when you become an adult? What kind of adults have they become? Aren't you following the same path as your parents? I would like to answer, “Please go through life while imagining that.” Please be careful not to become an adult like an eagle.

　It's no wonder that some hazy feelings remain in my heart. I put up with it so that I wouldn't worry about my mom, but I don't think it's okay to cry at times like that. Parents definitely don't find that annoying. Parents feel more at ease when their true intentions are revealed. Why don't you just talk to your mom about what you're thinking right now, not your friends?

As for you, you're your birth parents, father, and mother, so you probably wanted them to get along well. It must have been sad.
There are probably things like “I was sad,” “I wanted them to get along well,” and “I wanted them to do more like this.” I think that should be conveyed.
Parents will never be hurt by that.
I think crying can happen, but it's not hurting.
I'm sorry, and these are tears from a sense of guilt.
I think this story was because I thought you wanted to know the truth even if you don't forgive me because you've been firm to a certain extent.
Your mother also thought that she had to tell that story sometime for over ten years, and I think she had to suffer all this time so as not to hurt you.
Bottom line: go for it.
Ask what you want to know more about.
Tell them that you're sad, but that you're okay.
Thank your mother, who is sad but has always raised her.
If it's hard, say it's hard. If you feel a little better, just tell them about it.
You are not guilty. Even if you're divorced, that doesn't change the fact that your father is your father. It's a good idea to feel that your father has loved you in your own way. It seems that my friend was raised only by her mother, but she said that when she met her father from time to time and was able to confirm that she was loved, her loneliness disappeared.
It would be nice if I could talk properly with my dad someday. (^－^)
Thank you so much for telling me about your pain.

Kotonoha Sama
Nice to meet you, my name is Tetsuya Urakami from Nagomi-an.

The confession from your mother must have been so surprised and made you feel sad.
Thank you very much for gathering up your courage and contacting us.

I know someone like this.

That person was raised very affectionately from an early age.
He eventually got married, and of course he needed family register documents, so when he picked them up at the government office, an unknown name was written in his mother's column

He was confused, but when he asked questions from his relatives, he found out that he was not his real child. he says. “I was surprised,” he said.
“But if you look at recent news, there are parents who abuse and kill their own children, and parents who throw them away. I was deeply loved by people who were not my real parents. And I'm sure the mother who gave birth somewhere in the world also thinks about herself. I have two mothers. I think how happy they are.”

Kotonoha-san. You must have been deeply loved by your parents.
This is because she thinks “if I cry, my mother will cry too” to her mother who has made a serious confession, and she also has a kind heart that thinks “I definitely don't want to bother my mother.”

That kind heart and fuzzy feelings are seeds that nurture you.
Your dad probably thinks about you, and one day you'll have a best friend who you can talk about this.
I'm supporting your new high school life!