My parents are filial

Nice to meet you.
Even if you keep thinking about things that have passed away forever,
It can't be helped anymore.
I've certainly wasted my tuition fees, etc., and I'm causing trouble to my parents now.
But you're still young.
Even if you cause trouble to your parents, you're still forgiven.

How will we live from now on?
It seems like they've been thinking about vocational schools, so please aim for that goal first.
I think I'm really losing my confidence right now,
There are things that make any person uneasy if they are alive.

If you think about it, it's a life where I create and destroy over and over again.
Also, I'm just drooling at my own poor performance,
Accepting that kind of self is also what I am.
Although I tried entering the Buddhist priesthood,
I don't even know for myself if they are suitable human resources for monks.
But that's the only way I can live.
I believe it is the Buddha who understands that reality very well.

There is something good even when it's not done well.
If you have even one good part about yourself, you can make money.
Then don't worry about the surroundings and go at your own pace (^_^)

It's important that you feel really sorry for this.
And it's about being honest.
At least 7 times from now on. Think of it as 7 times.
7 times your parents may blame you for dropping out of college.
But I can apologize properly there.
Then use that as a signal to save energy that will turn into a spring called ❝ I'll get it back ❞ someday.
If you do that, even if you can't get it back with money, if you are sincere, flowers will always blossom in other fields.
The feeling of shame, oh, sorry... is an explosive growth force.
Damaging that would be counterproductive. Ichiro said it too. You won't know if it's a failure until you get over it. Many people drown there and become remorseful, depressed, sink, and lethargic.
If you have a positive feeling that results will come out next, you will definitely live.
The way you use energy called a tired map is a useless reverse, and one that is used for swelling will fail in life. That is the only thing we should reflect on and correct our trajectory. (c._.) g salt

　I failed the university entrance exam and went through 2 waves. At that time, my parents “disgraced me.” I was told.
Even when it's time to get married and live in an apartment, “I can't face the world.” I was told.
Basically, parents are 80% concerned about the public body. But in the end, I had my own life every day, so before I knew it, I stopped being told about it. Should I say I'm tired?
You didn't make your parents unhappy. Your parents made you unhappy. I think it's okay to say that. Why did you go to college? I'm sorry, but most people can play a variety of games that work in an advantageous way to get a job. Somehow the surroundings will go. Parents work advantageously to get a good job (earn a lot of money). I can be proud of my neighborhood. That's about it. You are great when you quickly realized that and quit. Please work hard towards your dreams at your own risk.
“Failure isn't about falling; it's about not getting up.” (Mary Pickford)
If possible, I wanted them to talk to me before I quit college.

Ona-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

Until now, we have dealt with “comparing” in the following questions.

List of humble answers, category “About comparing things”
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/cat_320135.html

List of poor answers and tag “compare”
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/tag/比べる

Comparing is of course not a bad thing. It is necessary to contribute to self-improvement by correctly grasping the current situation you are in. The problem is that they despise themselves so much that they are tormented by bad worries.

Actually, ONA is also self-loathing when she is inferior, she has lost her confidence, and she has fallen into anxiety...

Well, when you're young, you make a lot of mistakes, and things you reflect on. However, it is important whether or not we can use that as food to leap to the next.

When I was in college, I had many failures and things to reflect on. For example, for one thing, I took a leave of absence for training, went back to college, went back to college, and went to Ito Juku for 1 year to study for the bar exam, but in the end, the relocation of the cram school, the busyness of work, and college graduation overlapped, so I couldn't go to school, and I decided to take classes on DVDs at home, but in the end, my studies didn't progress... it faded out. My salary at that time... was spent quite a bit, and went to waste I thought it was over... but the knowledge I gained through hard work and study was later useful for establishing a social welfare corporation, establishing an NPO corporation, and establishing a general incorporated association, and I was able to make great use of it in operations. I've also been able to make use of this Hasunoha answer once in a while.

Perhaps the fact that Ona also worked so hard to immerse herself in her hobby may be directly or indirectly utilized in her life or work in the future.

Rather than falling into self-loathing, I hope you can switch your mind to the fact that you were able to do what you wanted to do, and take on the next challenge and make use of it.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho