I get nervous when I read sutras and my voice trembles

Needless to say, the basics of being a monk are chanting sutras.
Of course, you're probably at the temple (although it's different if not), so when you work in the morning and evening, you have no choice but to chant slowly and loudly in a loud voice first.
Nervousness is something you cause yourself. First, you can do it as usual, so after all, all you have to do is build up normally. When I think I'm nervous, I get even more nervous and my vocal cords are tightened, and it's an even more vicious cycle. It's easy to imagine.
Of course, there are times when I get nervous too. I'm not reciting the sutras, but there are times when I'm thirsty during the puja and greetings, so there are times when Lu Lu doesn't go around. To that end, I practice over and over again.
The first thing to do is to have confidence. I don't think anyone is nervous.

Hello.

I wasn't “nervous when reading sutras until now,” but “recently I've been nervous when reading sutras due to vigils, memorial services, etc., and my voice trembles.” The more I worry about my voice trembling, the more spurred it on me to the extent that the sense of self-remorse that “I'm sorry to all my followers” grows. I'm gradually starting to sweat, and I'm worried about the reactions around me. I think it's a vicious cycle where sutras recitation and actions are always unruly affected...

This is a rite that cannot proceed unless you lead it in a quiet place, and it is like the unavoidable fate of a monk who cannot help but receive the attention of all those present there.

What bothers you is your gaze?
Or is it my own voice quality or pitch?

If you are concerned about the line of sight, guide them to sit back as much as possible during the memorial service. It's nerve-wracking to be watched by a disciple sitting next to you. So, please sit where you can see the principal image, that is, tell them to sit behind you in a position where the Buddhist altar is in front of you, and create an environment where it is difficult to get nervous.

When you don't have confidence in your voice or pitch, it's also important to get voice training. It is important to gain confidence by objectively evaluating the voices you make. Also, if you start speaking and don't feel confident, hit the ring a little harder. Also, it is a good idea to introduce it naturally by gradually making the voice louder.

Also, if you rely on horizontal connections and talk to senior monks, there may be people who have had similar experiences, and it will be helpful. Rely on your friends rather than holding them alone.

Also, if this situation becomes more intense, the vicious cycle mentioned earlier may lead to a state where it is more difficult to improve. It is also important to have medicine prescribed by a psychosomatic medicine doctor as soon as possible. Dealing with it early is probably an cardinal rule common to everything.

It may take some time, but by taking time little by little and going through trial and error, you can always go back to the way it was before. Don't be impatient, accumulate what you can do, and increase what you can do. one at a time.

Take care.

① Rehearse
(Since I mostly travel by car
(I'll sing my favorite song and practice vocalization)
② Lick your favorite throat candy
③ Don't drink green tea or coffee
(Caffeine shrinks the throat)

I'm going to wear a mask now
I don't really care for the trembling voices of the pilgrims.
For us, work is a daily routine
Because it's an once-in-a-lifetime meeting for pilgrims
More than the voice quality of sutras recitation
You'll be concerned about behavior and puja.

At the funeral of the parishioner who took care of you
There are times when my voice gets stuck and I can't recite sutras normally.

You're nervous, aren't you?
I work every day and work to the fullest without cutting corners with the intention that there is a parishioner behind me. I wonder if that is the only way to accumulate it.
When my voice trembles, I try to sing more slowly and carefully than usual with all my heart.
Gassho