Are we not allowed to take our own lives?

It is also one of the modern diseases that is increasing year by year. suicide!
It is an option given only to humans, and other animals do not have it.
There is a reason why they think about committing suicide and carry it out, but not only that, it is mental illness. Examples include impulsivity.
I have experienced about 2000 funerals so far, and not a few of them have committed suicide.
The sight of the bereaved families left behind is unbearable.

It is said that you will “take your own life,” but you are “committing suicide”!
You're not the only one who has a hard time being born and living in this world. From the time a person is born as an “ogger,” life begins with a cowout down and always heads towards death, along with that, the pain of living, the suffering of getting old, the pain of getting sick, and suffering from fear of death is a phrase often used in the four suffering of “life, old age, illness, and death,” and “four struggles and eight hardships” come from Buddhism for this reason, and there are 4 and 82 suffering in total. It's not.

In this world, all people suffer equally: you, me, and you.
The Buddha also preached that this world is a world of suffering. “This world is like swimming in a sea of suffering.” It's a painful and natural world.
Firmly accept the suffering, step by step! Walking is walking today.
I don't know if I “might die” tomorrow! Most people just think they'll be alive tomorrow,
Nobody knows what tomorrow will bring. People are always beginning to die, even if they are not in a hurry to die. At this time when there is a limit,
“The only thing you have to do is take the present and only for today and live hard, that's all. Nobody knows tomorrow!” That's it.

There are a lot of hard things about living. And it scares us on days when we have various difficult problems. I think it is difficult to understand and accept all of those painful and painful things.
However, our lives will not disappear even if we pass away. Furthermore, we received our lives from our parents, and we are still living with the support of various people, and the things we eat every day also receive lives. It is also a reality that it is impossible to make that connection between lives poor. Also, it is a role given to have the next connection due to the lives you have been given.
When it's really hard, stop thinking for a while, and there comes a time when you can slowly think again. I would like you to live your life while looking forward little by little without pushing yourself into anything.

tonight.
I read your question.

You're also living with all kinds of suffering and worries right now...

I'm not saying I'll take my life when I'm in your rank, but from time to time I think “what will happen if my existence disappears,”

It was just a vague feeling, but “will I be able to live my life for decades to come? Can we grow up, become adults, and live in society?” I had unspeakable anxiety.

However, as humans live their lives, I think “suffering” overwhelmingly accounts for a larger proportion than “ease.”

Nevertheless, as you said, all humans work hard every day for their own lives, for their families, and for what they should protect, even though they have various worries and suffering.

Just like that, everyone has a background they must live in.

Dogen Zenji, the founder of the Soto sect, also left the phrase “when you're alive, you live; when you die, you die.”

In other words, when you're alive, concentrate on living (that's living),
If you spend your energy living, death will naturally follow you later, so there is no fear of death. (coming to death)

Therefore, if you are naturally living, you are getting closer to “death” moment by moment, so there is no rush to die.

Also, I'm not living desperately because I want to live as you say, and I'm not living because I don't want to die.

Everyone lives because they “must live.”

Since you are still young, the meaning or reason why you must live may not be clear.

But I think that's fine now.
You'll surely find it when you become an adult and have to shoulder “responsibilities.”

I hope you will continue to face the issues of life and death in the future and build your own firm view of life and death.
Ryusuke Gassho

Sawako-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

It's really difficult, but Buddhism deals with two types of truth.

One is secular folly as a worldly truth.

The other is Katsuyoshi Yoshitaka as the ultimate truth.

There are actually a lot of things that cannot be answered honestly or cannot be answered according to the way people look at things and think about things in a public way of looking at things.

The “view of life and death” also has this and that depending on the values, ideals, etc. of each person in terms of worldly views and ways of thinking, etc., and it does not mean that “this is the correct answer” can be honestly found.

So, no matter what happens from “Katsu Yoshitaka” as the supreme ultimate truth, in fact... there are many things that cannot be expressed in words. If I had to express it, it would be “immortal, immortal,” and if it were to match this question, it would be “immortal.”

However, this “immortality” must not be taken literally in terms of worldly views and ways of thinking about things. Please think of this as something tremendous, even when it comes to expressing the content in letters, and there is a limit in any case.

So, when it comes to how to understand it, there is no choice but to practice Buddhism and understand it yourself.

If you really want to know the answers to your questions, I would be happy if you could take an interest in Buddhism little by little from now on and proceed with your studies.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho