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It's painful that things don't go well

I haven't had a boyfriend = my age.
I want a boyfriend, and I have a strong desire to get married and have children, so I thought it wouldn't work like this, so I started a matching app 2 years ago, and I've met about 30 people.
No matter how many times I meet people I think are good, I don't like them, and I don't like people I think are good for me.
As long as I was with someone I didn't like, I tried to find others over and over again, and although I worked hard in my own way, I sometimes began to want to die when things didn't go well.
If you cry, happiness will run away, so even if you want to put up with it, you'll be sad and cry.
I came here thinking that I would be patient now in order to have great happiness from now on, but I'm worried about when I will be happy.
I often hear that if you don't need a boyfriend, you can have a boyfriend when you give up.
Certainly, I understand that there are times when an atmosphere with plenty of leeway is more attractive in human terms than a grumpy atmosphere, but it's not something you can give up when you decide to give up, so what should you do...
It seems that it will take another 20 years to be able to give up, but even if a partner is found at that time, it is difficult to give birth due to age.
I want to feel the joy of raising children.
I also hate myself when I don't rejoice in people's happiness.
I also wanted to change jobs, and I'm taking action, but I haven't made up my mind...
I think it's a shallow idea, but I think I've been making an effort to think that if either one goes well, I'll be able to ride the waves, but it becomes really painful when nothing goes well.
I don't like myself when things don't go well, and I can't imagine a future that works at all.
There are also people who are in an even more difficult situation, so I think it's too weak to worry about such trivial things, cry, and want to die...
If you live seriously, will there come a time when you will be rewarded...

4 Zen Responses

I'll go to places where we might meet

Life doesn't turn out the way you want it to. If everyone does what they want, everyone wins the lottery.
You can have a relationship by taking action so that you can meet someone. First of all, that's important. Conditions do not make people fall in love with it. If you apply too many filters, your eyes will judge your opponent, and you won't be able to look at them honestly. It's important to be someone who is honest and can be respected. The way to determine that is to try to have a relationship. Likes and dislikes come later, so if it doesn't work, you can say goodbye.

If you're tired, why don't you take a break from activities? And why not set aside time for your own hobbies. It's fun to be involved with people who have the same interests, so it brightens up your life.

Let's expand our future relationships

I read it.
I read that you are very worried that things aren't going well for you. In particular, you're really worried about not being able to get a boyfriend. I understand your painful feelings from the bottom of my heart.

Certainly, there are a lot of things that don't quite go the way you want if you try to ask for them. Life doesn't quite turn out the way you want it to, and it's also something you can't get. But I also don't think it's about giving up.

If you don't mind, let's continue looking for wonderful encounters.
My friend presides over the “Temple and Shrine Con,” and many couples have been born through shrine and temple tours and events. It wasn't easy to meet people due to COVID-19, but recently various events have finally been revived, so we have formed many relationships while visiting shrines and temples all over the country.
https://jisyacon.com/
If you don't mind, why don't you feel free to participate in events such as the “Temple and Shrine Con”? So feel free to visit shrines and temples with all kinds of people and interact with them. Also, the circle of interaction is expanding online, so why not try using it?
https://jisyacon.com/event230513

Also, in addition to that, feel free to participate in community volunteer activities and club activities to expand your circle of relationships.

I sincerely pray that you will be blessed with wonderful encounters in the future, and that you will be able to live a truly peaceful and happy life with many people while deepening your relationship with that person and being on good terms from the bottom of your heart.

Can I express my emotions

Thank you for your consultation, Mr. Pumpkin.

It's such a desperate feeling that I want to die. You were able to talk about your feelings here very well. First, let's take a deep breath over and over again to calm down.
“Because happiness escapes when you cry...” It's okay to cry. It seems like they are naturally crying sadly, but it's okay to cry more honestly. You don't have to put up with it, accept your sad feelings, and it's okay to cry.
Instead of “putting up with it now,” I think it's okay to be free now. I think it's okay to let go of your feelings. If you want to feel the joy of raising children, take an honest look at families enjoying raising children and feel the joy together.
There is no need to hold back yourself by saying, “There are people who are in an even more difficult situation...” When things don't go well and it's hard, it's about honestly feeling “it's not going well!” Rather than worrying, I felt sad and cried, felt joy as joy, smiles overflowed, and felt myself doing my best even though things weren't going well,
You can express both joy and sorrow without hesitation, and when smiles overflow, you will surely meet a good person. This is because I think people who can sympathize with your feelings have close values.
Please refer to it.
One bow

Create your own charm that overflows with the joy of living

Hello, Mr. Pumpkin.

I want to get a boyfriend and get married and have children soon.
Efforts to meet someone are important, but what you have to prepare even more than that is how much fun Pumpkin is living her life, regardless of whether she has a boyfriend or not. If you are happy and fulfilled in your life, the man you are in a relationship with will surely be drawn into your charm. Men are looking for a woman they feel safe with who they are more than her appearance. It can be made with your hard work. Be a woman who can always talk about fun about hobbies and sports. The circle of relationships between men and women will expand, and people who are attracted to your charm will come out. A relationship should be formed from there.
Even if you catch a man in a hurry, once you get married, I can't talk about it being a big mistake. I often talk about “the law of flies and butterflies” as an example in sermons, but beautiful butterflies come to a heart that looks like a pretty flower, but no matter how beautiful you are, only flies that have a dirty mind come to people who poop. The right person for you is sure to show up.

I was in a hurry. First, let's live our lives happily. Men don't show interest in you, even if you're cool. Let's live a healthy, cheerful, and enjoyable life. There's no way people around you should leave you alone like that.

Gassho