No matter what I do at my parents' house in Kumamoto, I don't feel like studying.

　Yu-san often and honestly told me the inside of my heart. First, let's calm your mind by taking slow, deep breaths over and over again.
As Yu-san feels, since the outbreak on April 14, I haven't been able to sort out my mind, and work is hard every day. Actually, as one of the people involved in volunteer activities in various places after the Great Hanshin-Awaji Earthquake, I am deeply saddened by the anxiety, inconvenience, and suffering of the local people. However, as a person who experienced the Great Hanshin-Awaji Earthquake, I also remember that it was very encouraging to receive a lot of support from all over the country and overseas.
Buddhism has taught that “things and things in the world are impermanent,” including our lives. Even though I'm a monk, I was like, “What a negative teaching about Buddhism!” I was only able to accept it, but recently I realized that my way of taking it was wrong. “Because all acts are impermanent, I appreciate the goodness and preciousness of the lives and encounters I have been given today, and also the water, electricity, gas... that I enjoy as a matter of course.” I noticed that I was teaching it. Buddhism has been close to us who have various sorrows and afflictions for a long period of time, 2,500 years since the Buddha, gave us the power to accept adversaries, and continued to show us the path to be led by the Buddha.

Please be sure to add “grief support” to Yu-san's future learning. I understand that the anxiety and anxiety that Yu-san is feeling right now is quite natural. Also, I understand that with proper support, we can gradually accept reality. You can also learn how to support those who feel anxious, worried, sad, or angry. This will support Yu-san both in public and private.
Furthermore, as was the case with myself, I think that learning from the current situation of those affected by the disaster and subsequent reconstruction, as well as learning about the hardships and specific measures of supporters will also be an important asset for Yu-san.
Thank you very much for having the courage to speak to Hasunoha. Hasunoha member monks are supporting Yu-san's future. Thanks for the partnership!! Gassho

Is your family okay?
Please consult with your parents to decide about the future.

If your family is fine and you can go to college, prioritize studying and job hunting.
Local restoration will take years.
You can leave it up to the locals and volunteers now and work for the local community starting next year.
Each person has their own role.
Your current role is studying and job hunting, isn't it?
Good luck with that.
This will benefit the local community in the future.

　Earthquakes have occurred one after another in Kumamoto. I would like to express my sincere condolences.

Your hometown is Kumamoto Prefecture, so are your family members safe? What about the neighbors? You're worried and can't get your hands on anything.

I work for the local fire brigade, so I try to stay in my hometown as much as possible. At the time of the Great East Japan Earthquake, and this time too. Even when there are other disasters. I have a feeling that I want to go, but I have to protect the local “emergency” at this place. I am here with such a sense of mission. Instead, I'm always wondering what the hell we can do here.
For example, I am often in front of my computer, so if something like a hoax is playing on the internet, I call attention that “it might be different.” If there is useful information, it will be played, etc. It may be a small thing, but maybe it will stop the hoax, or maybe there are people who can be saved by the information I spilled. I think so.
Also, while watching TV, the internet, etc., I sort out what is happening at the site, what kind of problems the residents are having, and think about what I can do now. And we do what we can. Also, I'm thinking about what I would do if I were there, and what I could do and what I should do as a fire brigade in the event of a local disaster.

If you are also aiming to become a firefighter in the future, please think carefully about what you can and should do in the place where you are now, as someone aiming to become a firefighter. And then run it. It's not just about going to the scene. Also, when you become a firefighter in the future, please take a close look at the current situation as to what you can do and what you should do.

I'm sure you'll be a great firefighter. I'm rooting for you.

That is,
It's not because Yu-san is a low-willed person,
That's because it's highly sensitive.
It's a necessary ability as a human being.

Right now,
Yu-san can go back to Kumamoto and help people,
Reconstruction will take years.
It's better to go home as a real firefighter
We can help more people.

Since I was aiming to become a firefighter in Kumamoto even before the earthquake occurred,
That is probably the fate imposed on Yu-san.
The local community is waiting.

　　Five years ago, on March 11, I lived in Wakabayashi Ward, Sendai City, Miyagi Prefecture, and was hit by the Great Japan Earthquake. Since it is far from the sea, there was no damage from the tsunami. The tremors of the earthquake were severe, but the shed, which had just been rebuilt with steel bars, was safe. However, in the main hall, both the Buddha statue and Buddhist altar were turned upside down, and the wall peeled off quite a bit. However, there was little damage to the pillars and beams, and only a few tiles fell off. As aftershocks continued, it was determined that it was dangerous to use the main hall, and the large hall in the warehouse was decided to be a temporary main hall.
On 4/7, nearly 4 weeks after the earthquake, the designers and builders finally came to see the damage situation of the main hall and said, “It's light in terms of damage. It's fine if you repair several parts of the exterior wall and repair the beams at the same time.” I was somewhat relieved when I was told that. However, there was an aftershock with a seismic intensity of 6 at night, and to be honest, I was depressed because I had to completely repair the walls of the main hall. In fact, there are many disaster-stricken areas within the same Sendai city, within the same Miyagi prefecture, and even more in Tohoku. But I didn't have the energy to act for a while.

From my point of view, I sympathize with your current situation. It can't be helped.

The problem is what to do from here on out. In my case, I wasn't able to do much, but since it's within the same prefecture, if you drive 10 kilometers 20 kilometers 30 kilometers by car, there are disaster-stricken areas and there are evacuation centers. Relief supplies have been delivered several times to an acquaintance's temple, which is an evacuation center. That's about it. While I thought I needed more support, I also had a job as the chief priest of a temple, so I must do my original job well. For 4 weeks after the earthquake, neither the funeral home nor the crematorium were able to operate as normal. At such times, the funeral proceeds accurately while taking care of the bereaved family and relatives. Take for granted what you take for granted. This is also important. That's what I felt. This is my case to the point where I get tired of it. I think you have your own path to take.

If you are concerned about the disaster-stricken area, it may take time and transportation expenses, but it might be a good idea to go back home for a while. I think what you can do now is limited even if you go home. It would be nice to watch and hear what firefighters are doing in such an emergency situation, but it may just get in the way. In the future, I will become a firefighter and help everyone in times of emergency. I think it's about working towards that goal and doing what needs to be done now.