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I lost my 1 year and 10 month old son.

Just 1 week ago, I lost my son, who was 1 year and 10 months old. On my birthday as a mother, my life was too short.

My son grew up fast and healthy, and was a child with excellent health no matter who looked at him. He died without warning, and was diagnosed as a sudden death of unknown cause.

On the night before his death, my son fell asleep peacefully as usual
The next morning, they were cold and stuck, and they never returned.
The day my son died was my 30th birthday. Why on earth is this timing...

My beloved child passed away so suddenly,
Our family left behind seems to be crushed by hopelessness and sorrow. Exactly, it's a living hell...

I myself would like to see my son again in the Pure Land of Paradise,

Does such a world really exist?
When humans die, they become “nothing,” and nothing but bones remain, right?
Sad thoughts, such as..., have crossed my mind, and I can't switch my mind.

If I can do it, I would like to live a positive life so as not to worry about my son,
How should we deal with this sense of emptiness and hopelessness?

Please give me some advice.

4 Zen Responses

Let's meet again

Hiroazu0411
I think it was very painful for me to suddenly lose my precious son.
Even though I know that young and old don't go in order,
I think it's unbearable.

Let me tell you a little bit about me.
I suddenly lost my sister about two and a half years ago.
It was suicide.
She was a different sister.

Even now, when I happen to think of it, I feel sorry
I'm crying because I have unspeakable feelings.

However,
They're watching from the Pure Land.
We will definitely meet again in the Pure Land.
I'm saved by that thought.

Who is the Buddha who opened Buddhism
It's Buddha.
Buddha is something that ordinary people can't understand,
He understood the truth of the universe, the laws of heaven, earth, and nature.

That person said, “It's not over when you die. I'm sure I'll be reunited with someone I had a relationship with in Amida's Pure Land of Paradise. Don't worry.”
That's what you said.

For us ordinary people
The world you can't see, the world you can't hear
It's the one I could see and hear.

Unbeknownst to us, it's as if science is omnipotent
I have an illusion.
but it's what humans do
It's not perfect.

There is a Pure Land.
Because science can't prove it, “no”
Isn't that arrogant?
Science can't even prove “there is”
You can't even prove “no.”

I believe the Buddha's words.
Then I meet my sister again.
It's not just my sister.
grandpa, grandma.
Parents they'll probably miss first.
My friends, old men and aunts who are parishioners.

With that thought, Namu Amida Buddha
I'm calling you by Amida's name.

If you compare Amida to a Buddha, it's like a “mother of life.”
She's like a mother who wouldn't want her child to call her name.

Amita-sama, I'm going to ask for my little sister.
When I think of my little sister, put that thought on me
Namuamidabu, namuamidabu.

I think it's my son's 49 days now.
Namu Amida Buddha (Namu Amida Buddha) and for my son
Turn around Nembutsu (praising someone who has passed away and redirecting their merits)
Please do it for them. As far as you can, that's fine.

Put Hiroazu0411's thoughts on that namu amidabu's voice.

We too will definitely be allowed to go sooner or later.
Let's bring them lots of souvenir stories at that time.

Children are always there for us.

I would like to express my deepest condolences for the passing of a child who was too young. The deeper the love, the harder it is to accept the death of that deceased person. Under such circumstances, I would like to write my own answers to your questions, and I would be happy if this answer from me could help you even a little.

First, the existence of the Pure Land of Paradise cannot be scientifically proven. That's because the foundation of existence is not in a world where science can prove it. Science always deals with the relative world. If there is a right, there is a left. Where there is death, there is life. If there are men, there are women. It's such a world. On the other hand, the Pure Land of Paradise is a world of Buddha that exists where the question of how we should live is questioned. It's not a relative, it's an absolute world. Since words are built on a relative world in the first place, what is in an absolute world cannot originally be explained in words. However, since that does not create a point of contact between people and the Pure Land of Paradise, the world of the Pure Land of Paradise is explained in sutras such as the “Muryoju-kyo Sutra,” “Kanmuryojukyo,” and “Amida Sutra” (commonly known as the Three Pure Land Sutras). There are times when you can't express 100% of your thoughts, no matter what words you use. However, even so, we try to convey our thoughts to others through words, and they also try to touch my feelings through my words. Similarly, through these sutras, we are exposed to the world of the Buddha we should live in, that is, the world of the Pure Land of Paradise.

By the way, it's not just in the Pure Land of Paradise that we can meet deceased people. In your daily life, when you think about the deceased and call them by name in your heart, I think the deceased will be by your side. Shinran Shonin said, “If there is one person, you should think that there are two people who are happy; if there are two, you should think that there are three people who are happy, and one of them is Shinran.” It is said that he left behind and passed away. The deceased always come to the place where I think of the deceased.
I'm sure your kids will always be there for you. Please talk to them a lot. Your kids will be looking forward to it.

Let's believe in the Pure Land and say Nembutsu.

Nice to meet you, Hiroazu0411. I'm sorry for the sudden loss of my beloved son and suffering in deep sorrow, but I don't even know what to say.
It's just saying Nembutsu. Namu Amida Buddha

Now, as Mahayana said, it is an area where science cannot prove whether “humans become “nothing” when they die, and only bones remain, or “everyone has passed away in the Pure Land and can meet again.”
Even in the modern age where science has developed so much and the causes of various events have been clarified, there are problems that cannot be proven or understood no matter how much people think with their heads.
Conversely, it can also be said that “death” is such an absolute thing.

However, it is precisely because it cannot be proven that we are left with the path of “faith” in how we think about “death” and “after death.”
Believing creates strength.

They take the end of their son's life as just “nothing,” and do they lament that their life was so short and cute, and that they can't even meet them anymore,

Even if my son's life ended short, there is no doubt that his existence gave me a lot of joy and happiness, and those memories will continue to live on in the mother even if she runs out of life, and now the son supports her as a Buddha who watches over her mother all the time, and do you believe that the mother can also be reunited with her son when she runs out of life?

Which faith will help Hiroazu0411 live? I'd like to choose the latter.
I don't think the Pure Land is anywhere; it opens up to those who believe in it. It is also a belief that we can create hell in our hearts and live in suffering, and that we can live in peace of mind because we were all wrapped in Amida's Pure Land.

Even if Hiroazu0411 can't believe it, he continues to work, making wishes to save us from Amida's side. Why don't you relax and surrender to yourself?

The devotion of the Jodo Shinshu sect is not forcibly believing what you don't know if it exists.
In my opinion, I have nothing but doubt. But beyond my own thoughts, I was made to nod by the teachings that are at work here and now. It goes beyond the idea that the Pure Land “exists” or “doesn't exist.”

In any case, I'm just praying Nembutsu in front of this unusual reality. Namu Amida Buddha

Live a clean life and travel to a clean world

 I am so sad to have lost my precious child. I would like to express my sincere condolences.

It seems that the average life expectancy of Japanese people around the Meiji and Taisho era was around 60 years old. Even if you look at the records of parishioners who died in that period, there are few people living in their 70s and 80s. More than that, what is surprising is that a small child has passed away. When it comes to how many siblings people in their 60s to 80s are now, there are quite a few people who are 5, 8, 10 or more. However, when I ask about the number of siblings, I often get sad answers. three siblings? When asked, no, there are actually 7 people. There are 5 people there now, but actually there were 10 people. They often died right after birth, or when they were infants.
In this day and age, nutrition has improved, medical care has progressed, and deaths among newborn infants have decreased considerably. However, even in modern times, there are many patients who are hospitalized in “children's hospitals.”
Also, there are cases where people die suddenly even if they don't have a specific illness. More than 20 years ago, it was reported that Fujiseki's daughter, Chiyo yokozuna, died 4 months after birth due to sudden infant death syndrome. When I heard the news, if it were a yokozuna kid, I was probably much stronger than some kind of kid, and when I thought, “If I lose my child all of a sudden,” I didn't think it was someone else's fault.

Two years ago, the daughter of a parishioner came back to her parents' house to give birth, and a baby was born. The baby had a serious illness and was admitted to the hospital, where treatment was exhausted, but she passed away. I asked the parishioners, “Could you do a secret funeral?” I was asked to recite the sutras, but I was worried about what words to say to the bereaved family. “○○-chan was short, but she had a clean life. And now I'm leaving for the Buddha's pure world. My life in this world was short, but I think I'll grow well in the Buddha's world. Please, let's all pray that they will do their best in the Buddha's world and that they will grow well. And let's cheer them on.” I said that.

Your child was also short, but I think they had a very, very clean life. You will leave for a clean world, and you will do your best in that world. The Buddha is attached. Let's do our best to support them in this world.