I'm dying to meet my husband

The mind changes moment by moment.
I want to see my husband when I think about him.
However, there must always be moments in your daily life when you don't remember your husband.
Otherwise, you wouldn't be able to do shopping or housework.
Honen Shonin said, “There are 840 million thoughts in one person's day.”
“Mind” is the smallest unit of time in the mind, and a 24-hour movie of the mind is made from 84,000 scenes (thoughts).
There are certainly times when the feeling of “I want to meet you” comes to your mind.
But that feeling will surely pass away.
Also, no movie will stain your screen.
When the footage from the movie passes, the screen returns to a white cloth.
Even if the movie “I Want to Meet You” plays on your mind's screen, think of it as a film that will surely pass.
The feeling of “wanting to meet” may occur in response to some kind of stimulation from the six roots (eye, ear, nose, tongue, body), but this is a natural phenomenon, and when another stimulus comes in, a different feeling occurs.
It's also a good idea to intentionally include other stimuli in your daily life.
The mind is impermanent.
The mind is new every moment.
While praying for souls by calling them Namu Amida Buddha and Nembutsu, let's also be aware of the feeling of leaving the feeling of floating and disappearing alone.

　Hello. I've also read the questions up until now. The phrase “I haven't received an answer...” has been seen several times, but I'm sure you can imagine “my husband would respond like this.”
Why can we do that? Speaking of which, it's because there was a story of our lives we had together until then. While fighting an illness, I think that would have been difficult, but before that, there must have been various “times spent together.”
Why don't you put those memories into letters and put them out in words, like opening a diary? It doesn't necessarily matter who reads it, but at least “I've lived this kind of life” is not only in your head, but I think that being expressed in letters will surely lead to your healing. I think you saw the activity of “having people talk about their thoughts at the bereaved family meeting” in the answer to the previous question, but talking about one's own life and being told about the lives of others certainly can be a support for living.
Therefore, I think it's a good idea to pick up various people's sickness records or private novels. By touching the life stories of so many people, I think you'll notice that the story between you and your husband also shines brightly.
Also, let's live by taking the diary we wrote to the Pure Land. I'll have them put in the coffin together, and I'll show you when we meet again over there. This is what you said, “Live as long as I am.” something like this happened. This is how I feel right now. Putting it into words proves the splendor of the life we lived together, and that we lived our lives to the fullest after that.
Regardless of the shape, it outputs your own life. I'll reread it myself. Among them, I'm sure you'll be able to feel the word “life,” why “namuamidabutsu” has saved so many people until now, and how many people have been saved by it.
Lastly, I would like to pray for the souls of my husband.

Kaotan-sama

The answers have already been answered, and thanks have been given
I'll tell you just one word, albeit belated.
What if I were in the opposite position
What words have you left for your husband?
And what kind of situation are you in with your husband when he is alone
Would you want them to live after that?

This might be a bit of a tough question,
Please also think about it in order to confirm the couple's bond.
Apart from that, it's okay to cry all the time.
You can keep thinking that you want to meet.
That's because it's a natural thought.
You don't have to blame yourself for that.
There are many forms of sorrow, and it's okay for every person to have different forms.

If you don't mind, on the official line of my temple
There is a grief post.
I just posted my thoughts for my husband and didn't get a reply
(If you wish, you will receive a reply from the chief priest)
I'm just conveying my thoughts, but there may be meaning in spelling it out.
Please use it if you like.

Maybe that was a modest answer.
I'm sorry.
Gassho prayer

PS: Thank you so much for your message. Please don't hesitate to talk about your feelings in the future. There are times when you need someone to listen to you.
I would be grateful if you could think of this place even if you feel lonely or depressed. I would like to thank you for this partnership. Regret

　Kaotan-san, I think of an eye opening memorial service such as a temple or tomb in the same way as a provider contract where the Buddha or deceased resides, and a telephone or mobile phone contract that allows conversation. When praying, the Buddha or the deceased do not respond, but please have a conversation
I'm talking about the law
First of all, I'll answer with that as the main premise

Please tell me what you want to talk about with your partner Please tell me about you and your partner's nursing

Just talking about Coco, the reason it's hard right now is because you know the shape of a married couple's love, because you know how to be happy
The reason you were able to go until your 3rd death was not only because you cared about your partner, but because you took care of your own health, managed yourself, and had the ability to perform memorial services
It's the result of taking care of yourself

Now I'll talk about my thoughts

Do you know where your partner passed away and where he went? Is it the Pure Land of Paradise? Where is the Pure Land of Paradise? The Pure Land of Paradise is in your thoughts and actions when offering a memorial service. It was the monks who gave the deceased the commandment name and performed the Buddha's disciple ceremony, but the one who made the deceased a member of the Buddha is not us, the monks, you are a relative of your partner, and the monks help you with that
So, when you're gone, your companions won't have anyone to do memorial services, and you won't be a member of the Buddha, so offering a memorial service isn't just an act you remember; it's your training

There's no end to training, so there's no end to memorial services. To that end, you should acquire life skills and continue to manage your health so you don't go to places you don't know where your partner is

That's all for me
Would you use my answers as a reference? why don't you do it? It's up to you