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I'm doing well even though it's still 1 year since I was widowed from my husband

Hello.
I lost my beloved husband last year due to illness. I have 3 children.
I can't talk to anyone, and it's painful, so I want them to listen to it.

As the title suggests, I'm still doing very well even though it's only been 1 year since my husband passed away.
I feel so disgusted with myself.

Of course, feeling lonely in everyday life
Yes, and there are times when I feel sorry when I remember my husband who had a hard time fighting his illness.
I loved my husband, and I think they were a very close couple.

Nevertheless, I go out drinking with my friends, go on trips, and focus on the beauty that I originally liked, and I live a very fulfilling day. It's not that I'm overdoing it, and I'm really enjoying it.

Every time I look at the Instagram and posts of people who have been widowed from their husbands and haven't recovered even after many years, or those who are depressed and have become mentally ill, I feel depressed, wondering what kind of heartless and terrible person my energetic self is.
Originally, I am optimistic and don't care about details.
Is there such a thing too?
When my husband passed away, it was such a sad and painful time that I thought there would never be such sorrow until now...
I know that each person has a different way of feeling and accepting grief.
However, I'm probably recovering too fast, and it's painful because I feel like I'm an extremely cold person even though I'm not doing anything bad.
We would be happy if you could give us your feedback.

4 Zen Responses

I offer my condolences.
You're not heartless.
Rather the opposite.
There is so much sadness and loneliness.
Unbearably.
So much so that I can't do anything.
That's why I'm cheering up.
If you're not well, if you don't play with your friends, the sadness and loneliness are unbearably great.
If you're not well, you won't be able to raise 3 children.
I think it would be more reassuring and fun for your husband to see you doing well from the other world.
Please continue to show your smile to your husband in the other world.

That's great

It's great to be able to live a healthy lifestyle, both mentally and physically, even after losing a family member.
The way of life that Buddhism aims for is a way of life like yours.
Conversely, if you are slow to recover or have an unhappy face and can't get a job, neither you, nor anyone around you will benefit.
Also, in the case of people who have many important acquaintances, the number of important people who die per year will also increase.
Should we get depressed and continue to be unhappy every month when an acquaintance passes away?
That's probably not the case.
People always die, and when it happens at an unexpected timing, it's like a natural phenomenon, isn't it?

Did someone tell you that?

 Jun-san, I'm sorry you lost a precious family member and please take care of yourself
I think the most important thing is that you are healthy. After this, it probably continues with the first anniversary of the first anniversary, the third anniversary of the equinox, and the first bon, but if you don't have physical strength and energy, you can't do memorial services. I often talk at funerals and memorial services, “Being healthy is also one of the memorial services; if you continue to be sad, it will get into gaps in your heart, and people who do misdeeds will also appear; please be careful.”
I have to be able to write on SNS, blocks, etc. when a family member really dies and I'm sad
I think they are voluntarily sharing personal information, and I think this is a dangerous act
Other than that, I want to get drunk on my sad self, and I feel like getting likes for that is different, so please take a look at what is written on SNS and blocks
Nobody thinks you're a cold person, and it's very difficult to say, but there's no need to listen to the opinions of people who aren't interested in you
When I do this kind of consultation, I take it as a serious other person's matter. Whether you're thanked or criticized, that's one way to receive it, so I'll close by writing this at the end, do you use it as a reference? why don't you do it? It's up to you
Why don't you take a break for human evaluations?

Nice to meet you, Jun-san

My name is Hakuryo. I was allowed to write and read it.
First of all, I would like to express my condolences, and I can only guess that this is a painful state of mind and uneasy situation.

However, there is absolutely no need for Jun-san to despise or regret himself when he is disgusted by himself. Being able to stay healthy and healthy is a wonderful thing that I am very thankful for.

Being able to stay healthy and smiling now probably means that I've only cried sad and painful every day since I found out about my husband's illness.
For that reason, from now on, I can travel and go out more and more, do lots of fun things, and spend a fulfilling day. You can enjoy it from the bottom of your heart.

When Jun-san says that she is living a healthy, enjoyable, and energetic life, it means that her husband is also cheerful, energetic, and happy to attain Buddhism in the “other world.”
Someday, the time will come when I can meet my healthy, cheerful, and healthy husband again.

Even those of us who live in “this world” are somehow overshadowed by the sun and moon.
I want to live a fulfilling life until the end of my life.

I pray for the health and happiness of Jun and her 3 children.

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