I want to change my thinking about other responsibilities
I'm a male in my third year of college now.
I would like to do something about thinking about other responsibilities.
The reason I entered a university with the current correspondence system is also negative. This is because I voluntarily quit a private school due to bullying, and my parents were unable to pay my tuition fees and some living expenses at all.
Therefore, I chose it because I could cover it with my part-time job + I could learn what I wanted to learn.
I really wanted to take the exam and go to a commuter university. I still have regrets. I always think the bully is the culprit.
Second, I became depressed because I made a mistake with the people involved, and I wasted half a year.
The following two triggers were: First, it was a half-year act of power harassment by my boss at my part-time job.
Next, sexual harassment by an old lady who was a colleague. Now I'm reflecting on the fact that the people involved should be chosen carefully. I should have made decisions more quickly that I shouldn't get involved, such as being shunned by people of the same sex and people staring at me when I was talking to another female colleague.
Time was lost due to the actions of two people. I haven't even been able to sleep for half a year, so my studies and job hunting haven't progressed much
If I hadn't gotten involved with my boss and aunt, I think the results would have been different than they are now.
This is how I blame people and think about it. Is this thought natural? Or should I correct it?
As a postscript, I gave top priority to my physical condition and rested for half a year, so I recovered to the point where I was able to study at university. However, there are ups and downs, such as getting sick from time to time.
