About my future life

Nice to meet you, I read your question. I heard that you were working in a very harsh working environment, and thank you very much for your hard work. I'm guessing that the fact that I got sick due to labor to live a lively life and now I'm unemployed really raises anxiety.
Falling down on the train is not a good thing, but it was probably a sign of physical limitations. If they were still doing the same job without falling down, their lives might have even been in danger.

You're currently recuperating, so why don't you do something you couldn't do during work? Your physical condition may be convenient, so you may not be able to overdo it, but I think you spent a relaxing time going to the movies, reading books, and going fishing. By spending a relaxing time, new vitality and things you wanted to do may come out.

I understand how awkward it is to be with my father. It's so unspeakably awkward that it's hard to keep up the conversation, isn't it?
I hear that there are many people who say it without thinking even when discussing work due to differences in generations.
I don't know what kind of father he is, but why don't we force ourselves to go out together? Whether it's the movie above, fishing, or driving, anything is fine. Why don't you spend this time deepening your relationship with your father? Parents are parents and children are children no matter how long they have passed. Why don't you spoil yourself regardless of age?

Now you can spend your time slowly, slowly, and when the battery is full, it restarts! Don't be impatient.

Being with your father in the living room is painful, isn't it? It's hard to find a job because I'm not feeling well. severe headache, numbness in hands and feet... It's a really difficult situation...

I don't call it a thank-you servant at your parents' house, but why don't you do work (samu), that is, work? For example, it is a task based on cleaning the room, cleaning the toilet, cleaning the hallway, washing dishes, etc.

Work is the basis of a monk's ascetic practice, and the senior monk Sho often says, “Shugyo Dachumon begins with work and ends with work.” I say it.

If you're working, your father won't be able to complain, and you don't have to talk even if you don't meet face to face. It seems like killing two birds with one stone.

It may also be rehabilitation. (Ask your doctor too.) Also, I think that if you keep reciting the mantra of the Buddha you believe in while working, your merits will double.

I hope your body gets better soon.

As Master Yamazaki said, now is the charging period. Being able to take a good rest is the first thing. I guess my body was at its limit. As the doctor said, originally, home is supposed to be a place of peace of mind and relaxation. Parents and children are people who can be treated as if nothing happened the next day, even if they had a big fight, but apparently, they have a pretty serious relationship. I was surprised. First, there is no curse on a god you don't touch. The first thing to do is not meet your father. While working as the chief priest of the temple, he also runs an osteopathic clinic. Migraines, hand and foot cramps, neck and shoulder stiffness due to psychogenic, stress, etc., may be caused by excessive tension. Aren't you stuck at home? Let's go out!! It doesn't cost any money. Start with stretching or light work. Let's gradually increase the intensity of exercise and try to recover our physical strength. Then it is. Looking for a job
Certainly, I think it's important to be cheerful, and think positively and happily, but I don't feel like that right now. But keep saying that I'm fine, even if you don't think so. I will definitely become that kind of person. Can I be saved by the Buddha too? At first, I was skeptical, but when I continued to sing Nembutsu (Namu Amida Buddha), I began to believe in its existence, and now I'm convinced. Please try it. Jōkō-ji
I can find a job, and I can be happy when I get married. There's no doubt about it!! I pray too, so please pray for yourself too. Jōkō-ji

Severe headaches and numbness in the hands and feet interfere with daily life...
It might be better to see another neurologist as a second opinion.
I don't understand such medical specialties here, so I think it's good to buy mochi at a mochi shop.

If you don't feel comfortable talking to your family, there's no need to force them to meet or have a conversation right now.
Do you have your own room?
If you have one, you can spend most of your time in diary format or on a blog since it's now, so it might be a good idea to record your own illnesses and experiences. It's also open to the public whenever possible.
There are quite a few people whose experiences are helpful even if they don't think so themselves, and there is also a possibility that it will be a tool to help themselves in the future due to some kind of trigger.
Oh, but take a walk on a clear day. If you don't bathe in the sun, your energy will wither.

I don't think it's too late for my age to think about my suitability for work and my girlfriend after recovering.
Rather, I don't think putting extra stress on it right now would be a plus at the moment.
I think it would be nice if it was enough to do a lot of research about occupations on the internet.

There is a curious correlation between the human body and mind.
Think you've been deceived, and now you can secure your own space, and imagine a place where cells throughout your body are energized and move freely.