I haven't talked to my parents

Rii-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is a humble answer to the question.

Does Rii-sama still want to be a nursery teacher?

I know that various situations have changed every moment, including my parents Morii and my older sister, since I was consulted by my parents when I was in my third year of high school. If you still have strong feelings about “I want to be a nursery teacher,” why don't you talk to your family once again? If you have already become a nursery teacher, you may be able to get some good advice from your older sister, and your family may be able to adjust your money to obtain qualifications. Rather than continuing to hide your feelings this whole time, I recommend that you try to confide in it once again.

“Thoughts will never be conveyed unless they are conveyed”... as I said in my recent poor answers to past questions, humans can continue to suffer from (exaggerated) delusions quite a bit. I'm stuck in the situation when I was in my third year of high school forever, and even though I'm still in my twenties, I also know that it would be a waste to be able to spend time with “regrets” like this.

Also, Rii has had several jobs so far and has experienced society. I'm sure I'll be able to make use of that experience in my future life. If you're still working somehow, assuming it's a preparation period to aim to become a nursery teacher, why don't you think about saving money or being able to continue studying with distance learning etc. even while working?

Also, I know that when the time is ripe, it would be good to go on to a vocational school to acquire qualifications in earnest.

I also know that in my future life, of course, I will still refrain from difficult things such as marriage and child-rearing due to various “relationships.”

I would be really happy if you could use it as an opportunity for you to think once again about whether to aim to become a nursery teacher or give up once and for all, rather than spending your future life with your current “regrets” as it is.

I wish Rii the best of luck in her life.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

I wanted to go to a vocational school, but I got a job.

Are you worried about that regret?

Or are they just suffering from the state of not being able to talk to their parents?

I would like you to explore the inside of your mind to see where your worries lie.

I think it is more or less common for everyone to be forced to choose a direction they don't want as a life choice.

If your desire is to become a “nursery teacher,” the more difficult it is to take detours, but I think it is about making an effort to obtain the qualification of a “nursery teacher.”

There is also a path called distance education, and if you think about that path, I don't think you necessarily need to give up.

If you have carefully investigated the path to getting the qualification of a “nursery teacher” (including the period and cost), and on top of that, if your will has solidified to the point where you want to get the qualification of a “nursery teacher” and walk the path of childcare, the details you will naturally consult with your parents and older sister will also solidify, and I think it will be easier to consult.

If you regret not being able to go to a “vocational school,” try to get away from being obsessed with “vocational schools” even a little bit.

The path you didn't choose was naturally in front of you as a “path not chosen.”
Circumstances around you, your preparedness, and various other causes (causes) led to the result (effect) of “not choosing” you.

It's a “natural” thing, and it happened as much as possible.

What matters is your heart.

I would like you to take this opportunity to have a conversation with yourself.

When I was in the ascetic dojo, I hoped that someday I would like to reform the structure of the dojo for the overseeing position of an ascetic monk.
However, the position I was assigned was the kitchen.
I was discouraged and didn't feel that it was worthwhile, but at some point, my way of thinking changed.

I thought that the flowers and fruits of work were in a gorgeous and glittering “position or job category.”
That wasn't the case.
More than what you do at work
Having a perspective on what life should be like and how to live.

It is important to have the flexibility, freedom, and state of mind before work.

Until now, I had assumed that only flowers and fruits had a delicious flavor,
If I had a point of view where I could understand that roots, trunks, branches, and leaves always have a horse flavor and real thrill, I was able to enjoy anything.

People look spectacular when they don't have things they don't have.
Actually, it is in places where you think it's a branch or leaf and take it lightly that contains important extracts that aren't even contained in flowers or fruits.

Even onions have the power to cure cancer on their skin,
Ginkgo biloba is not a fruit, but its leaves have high medicinal properties,
Dandelions seem to have detox benefits in their roots.

Rather than “what” work will you do in the future
“How” should I be from now on?
The fact that you bloom in your life is more valuable than chasing a flower that has bloomed magnificently.

The biggest flower for me was that Heart Flower, Heart Eye 👀 was able to open. This is the flower of life that can bloom within oneself, and isn't it true fruit?

Even if you were to become the nursery teacher you've always wanted, your actual workplace might be far from your ideal 😱. Maybe it's just the office work or the back office. So now it's about living a blooming way of life for you.

No matter what kind of job you get, if you are kind enough to understand your mother's feelings, be sure to understand the hearts of many people, help many people, and pave the way for happiness.
Today is Mother's Day.

Your way of life, where you've endured crying in the ground until now and let your older sister blossom, is gorgeous. Changing your perspective on the way you live is also a flower. Continuing to pursue your dreams is also a flower.
Please let the flowers you want to bloom.

Rii-sama.

That was the case with this question, wasn't it?
As you ask questions little by little, I think a lot of thoughts will come to mind.

If you live with your family or have a small amount of savings and don't need living expenses urgently, why not start by volunteering?

Read picture books to school children, children's clubs, and libraries. It's a good idea to get energy from children by having an opportunity to interact with children from around there, such as a camp counselor.
Why don't you take that as a first step?

Unfortunately, if you're going to eat at daycare, you need a qualification.
After working for 2 years for schoolchildren that do not require qualifications, they take the nursery teacher exam.

Or, save money while working part-time during the daytime, go to a daycare department with a correspondence system for 3 years, and graduate.

There have also been some changes in the system, but the specific advice is as described above.

Take time to improve your skills on how to communicate your feelings to your parents.
As we pass on things to children, I think there will be opportunities to talk to their parents as well. There is no need to suddenly talk about the core; it is also important to continue communicating through casual small talk.
Also, in addition to oral speech, there are also ways to communicate by letter or email.

I'll tell you in advance, daycare work is hard. The salary is also cheap.
My current salary is lower than the starting salary I received at a facility for people with disabilities 15 years ago.

Even so, if your passion for childcare doesn't go away, it's worth taking on the challenge.
There are young people at my workplace who are working hard to pass the nursery teacher exam.

I hope you can take steps that you are satisfied with. Namandabutsu.