I don't belong anywhere.

It felt like there was no place anywhere, and it was a very painful feeling, and that was the case for me, so I sympathized with it.

The sect I belong to is the Shinshu Otani school within the Jodo Shinshu sect.

There was a theme called “place to stay” in the monk training course here.

The motto of “Otani Senshu Gakuin,” a school for training monks of the Otani school of Shinshu, is “don't choose, don't hate, don't abandon.”
Real people choose people according to their own convenience.
I don't like being in a position that isn't convenient for me.
I will forsake those that I cannot control.

This is a real person.
It's a sad appearance of a human being.

We, the Shinshu Otani School, do not aim to develop perfect humans or good people who can completely “not choose, dislike, or abandon.”

However, the teachers at the academy really cared about our students.

I felt that no matter how much I rebelled against the academy, they “didn't choose, didn't hate, and didn't abandon me.”
So, I thought of the academy as my “place.”

I hope you can find a place like an academy for me.

This is a postscript.

“What should I do?” I don't understand either.
I'm also asking other monks to answer.

There are words like this that I remember.

“No matter where you go in the world, there are three words you need. For one thing, thank you. One is, I'm sorry, one is, please”
It seems like that's it.
I'm sorry I couldn't answer any more.

Also, I feel like I want to finish Konoyo as soon as possible.
I'm worried.

Hello, Nano-san.

Wanting to belong means you want to make friends.
You can't force yourself to join a group. It won't last long. Especially when it's just a group of good friends, heart and soul collide directly. That's why if your personalities don't match, you won't be able to get along well. Nano-san probably has that pattern.

First, you have to create your own goals. It can be a hobby or a sport. It is important to firmly master that. Then, you can join a group where people with different interests gather. There is no direct collision between hearts, and hobbies act as an adhesive, so groups can naturally maintain a distance between themselves and their friends.

Does Nano have any hobbies? Do you play sports? Please start there. As knowledge increases steadily with hobby magazines, conversations between hobby friends also flourish. From there, you'll also be able to make friends who meet your personality, and friends that touch heart to heart. That's how you get into a group.

Good luck! Gassho

●Answer again

Don't you have any hobbies? Do you have any favorite singers? What anime do you like? What comics do you like? If there's an artist you like, you can work as a fan of that artist, or search for music you like on YouTube. If it's an anime you like, look up that anime or original story. If it's a comic I like, I'll collect comics. You can do whatever you want. And since there are a lot of people doing it, I went to that FB and SNS site to learn a lot, and if it's a comic, I went to Comiket. All kinds of hobbies expand, and you can connect with friends from those hobbies. In sports, for example, if you can't get injured, you can go to the stadium to cheer as a fan.
Why don't you start by digging into what you like?
If you've come all the way to the monk's site, you can make your debut as a temple visiting girl or temple girl (laughs).

●Answer again
You're watching anime and manga, aren't you? What are you looking at?
Sports, even watching TV, is a sport. Aren't you watching the Paralympics right now?

●Answer again
Just because I belong doesn't mean I can appear on TV. That's because Saito-sensei's personal expertise met the needs of viewers. There are many people who are buried even if they belong. If you don't shine as an individual, you won't be able to play an active role even if you belong.

　Good evening.

People live by being involved with someone else or something. Of course, you can't live alone.

But I think that and “you have to belong to something” are different things.
As I wrote before, I don't think it's necessary to force yourself to belong to something.

I like being alone, so I spend most of my time alone, but it's not particularly inconvenient. It's easy and nice (laughs)

In a book by Saito Takashi, who supervises a program called NHK Education “Let's Play in Japanese,”
“If you're that kind of friend, wouldn't it be okay if you don't have them!” There is a book called.
There's no need to force them to flock or crawl! That's written on it.
It's a book for elementary school students, so it's easy to read. It's pretty cool.
https://www.amazon.co.jp/dp/4569634494

There's no such thing as not belonging to something. If it's hard, you should stay alone.
For now, instead of “belonging to something,” why don't you secure a “place of residence” where you can be alone, such as going to a library, going to an art museum, going to a park, or going to a convenience store? Is there a cozy place where you can be alone?
Maybe in the process, “library buddies” or “museum friends” will naturally form. (If you can't do it, don't worry about it.)

There are similarities in the past, so I'll paste them.
http://hasunoha.jp/questions/10312

appending
I see. While Saito sensei (or rather, many people) did their best alone, I think they had relationships and “belonged.” The idea is the opposite.
It seems like they want to join some kind of organization, so how about a volunteer group first? There is a shortage of volunteers everywhere, and since they are all kind people due to the nature of the group, I don't think there is much to worry about being “hit.” Also, once you join an organization, I think it's important to belong with a feeling of gratitude for being part of the group, and a feeling of putting up with and forgiving things to a certain extent.

I read it.
Somehow they haven't bitten each other, so
I decided to try writing it.
At first, I intended to go through. The reason is that monks are
I'm trying to calm your feelings somehow
I'm doing it. Your encouragement is
I'm scolding you that I don't want it.
It may be comforting,
for you,
Take your precious time,
What do you want me to stand up
I gave advice out of my mind, so
First of all, thank you very much.
Isn't it?
If it were possible, I would be physically weak,
I don't even have a hobby, so
Regarding specific countermeasures,
If you have any advice,
It would be helpful, though.
If it says,
Narrow down wisdom that I don't have,
I think I answered right away.

You're begging for something you don't have.

Even if I am a fool close to this 60th birthday
Even though I'm struggling with my life and searching for a way to live, it's natural at age 20 or so.

Worry more. As soon as it's no good,
It creates a pessimistic view.
That's not good either.
It's a once-in-a-lifetime life,
I enjoy worrying.
You might not understand this right now, but
Live for 30 more years
Remember a long time ago, a damn boy told you something you didn't understand. You might understand a little bit.
Well, I'm going to tell you a secret plan in particular this time.
The words “no good” or “impossible”
I won't use it.
I'm tired. I don't like it. If you think about it,
I'm tired, but I'm still fine!
I don't have any hobbies. I don't need a hobby.
Get out of your friends. I'm comfortable being alone.
It doesn't belong anywhere. What do you mean by not belonging?
Please change your words more and more.
Think you've been scammed and do it for 3 years.
Because you've become a wonderful person.
I sincerely wish you all the best.