Why and what was I born for

Yo-san

Nice to meet you, my name is Inoue Hirofumi from hasunoha.

Even if you work hard at the company, it doesn't pay off in the full-time employee exam, and it's very frustrating that people around you are hired for factors other than ability.

Self-esteem will also be hurt, and since it is directly linked to financial strength for life, there is more than enough frustration to fathom.

Unfortunately, we are unable to make Yo-san a “full-time employee,” but there is one thing I was curious about after listening to just one story.

It is said, “I think the more unhappy I am, the better for my daughter,” but with this, you are only sacrificing your daughter yourself.

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Please take a look at this image.

As you know, this is how to put on an oxygen mask, which is also on the safety bookmark on airplanes.

If you sacrifice yourself, as Yo-san said, you should let your child wear a mask first.

But that's not the case with this bookmark.

The first thing to do is secure oxygen yourself.

If you don't keep yourself healthy and safe, you won't be able to protect your loved ones.

This is called “self-interest” in Buddhism.

First, by benefiting yourself, you can then benefit others.

So why don't you love yourself first without thinking “the more unhappy you are, the better for your daughter.”

Success at work probably starts with loving yourself.

Gassho

Nice to meet you, my name is Aoshun from the Otani school of Shinshu

I really understand that you are having a hard time not being able to receive a proper evaluation.
In my opinion, even if I were able to become a full-time employee at my current company, the regular employees around me would think, “Why are my children full-time employees?” There are only people like that, right?
If so, I feel that becoming a full-time employee and getting caught up in that company would raise even more uncomfortable feelings.
If you had 10 billion yen, would you continue your current job?
If it's different, isn't it OK to think of searching for a different path as a “life choice.”
Fortunately, there are colleagues who acknowledge Yo-san's work, so I was relieved.

Also, your own misfortune will not lead to your child's happiness!! Kippari
A parent's misfortune is a child's misfortune, and I think parents can give their children a spill of love and happiness as they love themselves and are happy.
Even if you wish to “make the child happy at the expense of the parents,” it will put a “burden” on the child without knowing it, which is a big mistake, so let's forget that thought as soon as possible.

Don't forget that not getting what you want is sometimes a wonderful combination of luck (BY Dalai Lama)

If you have a firm hold on to what your dreams are and what your goals are, you will surely find a way. (BY Mahatma Gandhi)

There's no time to improve myself as much as when I'm stuck in my life, and I thought I was in a period where I thought about what I really wanted and what I really wanted to be.

In response to the title, Yo-san was not born to suffer or be sacrificed, so I think you can see the path Yo-san should take by looking at, loving, and respecting herself.

Gassho Nanmu Amida Buddha

Probably, that company is a company that makes profit only for people with such connections.
There are places where such connections are prioritized even in the boysan industry. That's crap, crap.
Therefore, if your analysis is calm, I certainly think it will be difficult no matter how hard you try.
Why don't you take the plunge and continue searching for places with job advertisements where your salary is higher than your current salary, or search for companies that hire full-time employees, and express your intention to quit?
Even there, if there is a wish “don't quit,” it's about making a deal. Otherwise, no matter how competent you are, it's probably a null company where only people who have passed tests without the ability you say can do well enough.
It's a bad word, but maybe it's more convenient for the company if it's ❝ clerical ❞❝ government office work ❞. Maybe they were “hit on the pole that comes out” and dropped because they were able to do too much work to get an award.
There are organizations in the world for connections and family prosperity. Representatives also eliminate others for the sake of the family's prosperity.
Rather than putting yourself in such a place and spending your life in vain, your life is much more meaningful if you work for a company that really buys your abilities.
Let's make up our minds to stop once and for all.
If you do that, you can even take a top approach.
Even if you make a report on the performance of field staff, why not insist that you are more competent than other employees and that you are a ❝ beneficial ❞ person to the company?
Even so, if you say NO, you're too competent for the company and you're a “troublesome person.”
There are ❝ feared ❞ people like that in the monk world.
When real people or powerful people appear, people who want to smoke sweet juice and other beings will fade, and they will not be able to live a dull life until now, so they dare to be buried.
Find people and places that need your power for your kids too.
Also, I think the idea “now, I want to die soon” is wrong.
That's exactly how unhappy your daughter will be if she hears it.
If you have as much enthusiasm as you, you should be able to do well in other companies.
I'm rooting for you.

Yo-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

What is the meaning of being born, why is it hard to live... I still have things to think about in my humble life.

Until now, I have answered the following questions about the meaning of life and living.

About the meaning of life
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/cat_318924.html

About living
http://blog.livedoor.jp/hasunoha_kawaguchi/archives/cat_318925.html

There are many hints in Buddhist teachings that can answer them, so I would be grateful if you could take this opportunity to learn and practice little by little.

Well, “the reward for hard work is not on oneself, but on one's own child”...

Of course, in Yo-sama, there are cases where children are somewhat affected, for better or worse, but in the basic way of thinking in Buddhism, as there are words “self-worth,” “self-cause and self-worth,” or “self-cause and self-effect,” the results of one's own actions (the three occupations of body and mouth) are accepted by oneself.

Broadly speaking, for example, it's impossible for someone else to pass an exam as a direct result of an exam based on the ability you've studied and worked hard to acquire in order to pass a university.

That's why the current results, such as being underfed, do not directly become someone else's illness.

However, it is possible that it has an impact on others, and for example, being positively influenced by friends and rivals who are aiming to pass the exam together, or that they smoke and harm others with secondhand smoke, and that poor health also has a bad effect on the daughter. (Please don't be desperate and take care of yourself)

Also, as called “causal retribution,” the law of cause and effect works for all things and things in this world, and officially the law of causality, works, and there is always a causal relationship (cause and condition) in the results of things and things.

In order to change that causal flow to something better and to a happy outcome, it is still necessary to make an effort to accumulate a certain amount of causal relationships. I believe that learning Buddhism will be very useful in order to change that trend for the better.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho