My friend who majored in philosophy refuted me.
I live a bleak life every day, and when I reached a milestone where I had to change, I was given an opportunity to think about the meaning of life. I wanted the meaning of life, or a reason to be convinced that I'm alive now. Somehow I found the reason within myself.
It says, “People try to do good, and they can't really do it. They try to be kind, but they aren't really kind. I'm trying to love, and I can't really love you.” I was convinced that making an effort to do good, to be kind, and to love is the joy of living. And I even thought about going back to college to make that “meaning of life” a job (counselor, psychiatrist, clinical psychologist, monk, etc.).
However, that friend denied the reason for my life as “settling reality” and the “heart itself that feels that beautiful things are beautiful,” as a delusion, and directly denied the existence of the Pure Land and the attainment of Buddha.
I couldn't deny that friend's idea. However, I didn't even think it would cause me to deny my original ideas.
Another person said, “There are things you should never say when someone is confessing their true intentions or weakness to you. That's right.” I said that.
Are the Pure Land, Buddhism, attainment of Buddhism, and Buddhism just lies to satisfy oneself? Is my feeling that beautiful things are beautiful things nothing but delusions?
I believe it exists if I think about it, but I want to do something about this tremendous and unmotivated feeling.
I'm probably this (existential philosophy? If I believe in orthodoxy (called), I think I'll be unhappy for the rest of my life, and furthermore, I can't do anything about it.
I wanted to live until I died to complete my life span given to me by the Buddha, but that thought had no choice but to become unstable.
How should I deal with this ephemeral feeling? Please lend us your wisdom.
I'm sorry for the long, childish sentence. Also, I am interpreting Buddhist thought in a selfish way. That's different; if there are any misunderstandings, you will receive the sermon with gratitude and respect.
Conveniently and ideologically, I wrote that person as my friend, but in reality, they're just a red stranger on Twitter who doesn't even have a follow-follower relationship.
('・ω・`)...
