Is it strange that you don't think “I don't want to die”

Hello.
This year, I was able to complete a big job that made me think “I was born for this” in such a good way that I can't complain. It is a job that not only satisfies complacency, but is also of great use to society. I think it can be said that the responsibility of being born into this society has come to an end.
So now I'm in my mid-thirties, and for me, the future feels like “the rest of my life,” and I've come to think that it's okay to die anytime.

I don't think being alive is absolute happiness. If you're alive, you'll know “things you would have been happy if you didn't know,” and there are times when you have to suffer from hopelessness. Money is necessary in order to live, but if you work hard for that and think “I don't know what I'm living for,” it seems like the purpose and means are being replaced.
Besides, now I have fulfilled my purpose in life in the best possible way, and I am at the peak of happiness. If now were the last time of my life, I would say, “My life was amazing!” You'll be able to die laughing. In a sense, I also think this is an ideal form of death.
I have parents, but I don't have a partner or children, so “I can't die until I watch over this child's future!” I'm not motivated to do that either. Since I'm a freelancer, I'm not responsible for the organization. My parents and friends would be saddened if anything happened to me, but I also think they would be proud of me for not being in the middle of my ambition, enjoying life to the fullest, and surviving by leaving a solid foundation in society.

However, there is also a trend where people shouldn't think about things that aren't lucky... and there are times when I personally think that “I don't want to live a long time” is strange as a living thing, and that voicing such thoughts is taboo as a person...
On the other hand, each person has a different view of life and death, and I think there is no point in being swayed by general arguments... There are also fixed sentences such as “a rebellious marriage is disrespectful to parents” and “there are people who want to live but can't,” but I think that's on a case-by-case basis.

Of course, I'm not thinking “I want to kill myself.” I just vaguely think, “I can pick you up now, and even if that happens, I don't think 'I don't want to die' at all”...
Am I wrong in my thinking? If it's wrong, why?
I would be grateful for this kind of teaching to me.

7 Zen Responses

You don't have to worry about it

It's not strange.
Actually, I think so too.
I thought I could pick you up anytime.
So you don't have to worry too much about it.
Enjoy the feeling of satisfaction for a while, and when you get tired of it, slowly search for your next goal.
After all, if you're going to spend the rest of your life, it's better to have fun.
It might be a good idea to try the exact opposite of what you used to do.

An important moment

I read it. I felt that was fine with your idea. That's because they each have their own purpose in life and live with hope. I want you to live the life you think is desirable.
Also, as we live our lives, our values, our way of life, and our purpose change from time to time. I think that is also possible.
Life doesn't last forever. Your life may be complete a moment away, it may be tomorrow, it may be 10 years from now, or it may be 50 years from now.
I think it's important to spend a moment facing yourself.
I sincerely pray to Shinto Buddha and your ancestors who are related to you that you will continue to have fulfilling and rich moments.

You don't have to think about dying like that.

　Nice to meet you, Piko, and I read the document, and I think it's wonderful to live a way of life where you really feel “my life was happy.” However, in our lives, I think suffering and relationships are important. The Buddha says “life is hard” in his teachings, but it really means that we live with a lot of suffering. Also, I think it's important not to live alone as “thanks to you” and “each other,” but to be supported by the people around you. Gassho

great!

Hello, Piko-san.

You've come to the point where you won't leave any more piles in your life, haven't you? That's great. If that's the case, you can pick them up anytime, so be patient for the rest of your life. Of course you can't commit suicide (laughs).

I thought my life was already half full, and I thought it was okay to die the same way, but now things are different. Will I be able to turn 50 in a blink of an eye and realize my dream in 20 more years? Just as the manga artist Tezuka Osamu, whom I respect, died saying “I want to write more,” I thought it would be nice to die because I wanted to live longer, and now I want to live, so now I want to live, so I'm exercising a little bit (laughs). I also want to see what the world will look like in the future. I want Japan to be wonderful for my son. I want to die protecting Japanese culture, His Majesty the Emperor's reign, and protecting the national sports situation. I also began to think so.

Every time I know that life isn't enough, I think about how I should live my life. It's around this time today that I think I have to work a little harder. Gassho

There's still more to come.

Obviously, I'll put it up already.
You're on the way to the entrance
It's not too much. It's about to come.
Who is the Buddha
After a long and strenuous ascetic practice,
I attained enlightenment at age 35,
No matter what I told them, if no one understood them, they wouldn't give a sermon,
Bonten-sama, who is the patron deity of Buddhism, was repeatedly told to come out and preach the teachings,
I began to spread my teachings.
After that, until they were imprisoned at age 80,
You did your best to proselytize.
With that in mind, I think the position you've attained is just the beginning.
I believe in the teachings of the Pure Land, so I don't practice on my own.
I'm afraid to write in detail,
I don't think there's anything better than this
A sense of satisfaction and fulfillment that makes you think
There was a time when I tasted it.
However, it was the beginning of the beginning
That's too much.
It may be a bit harsh way of saying it,
The boy in front of the gate sees the Pure Land of Paradise inside the gate
If it's just a glimpse,
I'm thinking about it now.
The reason is
Humans are social creatures.
You can't live alone.
Do a living job, live,
Due to conflicts with people and shortness of breath,
Sometimes suffering, trouble,
Also, in the midst of thankful relationships with people,
When I say thank you, I put my hands together to thank you.
In the midst of such a carefree life in the Shaba world, well, I learned my own experience,
What is the state of affairs
It makes me realize that it was nothing more than a fantasy.
there's still more to come.
I wonder what's next.
It keeps on reminding me.
You, too, are in such a situation
Throw it away right away
Surviving the present,
I hope it survives.
Is it OK to die?
Not yet, is it?
There's still more to come for me.
There's still more to come for you.
I, the old man who is close to 60th birthday
That's right, so there's no doubt about it.
Gutsu Gatsu and even bigger goals
I look forward to seeing them and doing their best.
A humble monk is to make a temple prosper.
Increase the number of followers.
Next, temples are terakoya, rush temple,
In order to play such a social role,
Survive. So, there's no end.
It hasn't even started.
People who were saved because there was a temple
Asking for as much as one person can.
So, do your best too.

Like Ichiro

Hello, Picosa.
Work the way you want
You've finished it, right?
That was great!
You're filled with a sense of happiness, aren't you?
But soon, my heart changes from time to time.
Why is Ichiro not satisfied
Do you laugh and accept every passing point when something happens?
What's important for him is to hit
That's enough to become a big hitter recognized by people all over the world
It hit the most number of hits in the world.
But he's not satisfied.
Until he hit more hits than the number of hits
In order for humans to live through daily efforts
You probably know that there are important teachings!
His words always seem like a seeker
Always attract people from the world
Isn't that why it won't stop?
Piko-san, there's still a long way to go
Please do your best like Ichiro.

In order to arrange a good cause and effect

Piko-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

In a sense, not being bound by life or death, not being bothered by, or unconcerned is truly the ideal of Buddhism as a “middle way” way of thinking.

Anyway, life and death are due to causality (cause and condition).

If there is still a cause for life, I would like to steadily adjust the good causal relationship as much as possible for a good heart and good deeds.

Buddhism is the teaching for reconciling that good cause and effect.

By all means, I would be grateful if this was an opportunity for you to become even more interested in Buddhism, and learn and practice.

I pray for Piko's happiness.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

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