Can you be happy even if you live without acting?

Marimo-sama
It is said that mothers who are raising children tend to lose their balance between mind and body. There are many things to think about, and there are also many people who are worried.

As Marimo also noticed, patience and acting lead to lying, which puts a strain on the mind. If you want to build a warm family, why not tell your husband that child-rearing worries and anxiety aren't expressions of disgust or distancing.
I want a truly warm family to have a relationship where they care for each other and support each other during difficult times.

When you need help, be honest and help! It would be nice if I could do that in a voice.
Relax your shoulders, don't just look down, and live your life facing up. If you turn your face upward, your feelings will quickly brighten up.

Nice to meet you, Marimo.

This is Nakamura Taishaku from Tokushima Prefecture, the temple of Dharma and ceiling paintings.

Marimo was assaulted by her father when she was young, and she was acting to protect herself. Even though they got married and had children, they continued to act, didn't they?

Will my child (3-month-old son) perform?
You must be acting as you think and feel. When I'm sleepy, I go to sleep. I cry when I don't like it. I'm spoiled by my mom when I'm hungry. When I find something new, I try touching it or putting it in my mouth.
The child is not acting in an attempt to be liked by the mother.

Marimo doesn't have to act anymore. I have a husband and son who understand and accept everything.

Let's take off the acting mask and be kids.

Marimo

When I was young
My father assaulted me
my mother didn't help me and pretended she didn't know

and
Trying to get my parents to like it
No matter what you do
I lived by acting my smiling and honest self

Put a lid on your own inner voice
A self that my parents will like
Because I've lived my life as myself

What does my true self want to do
I don't understand anymore.

or

When I almost hear my inner voice
I feel like something I've been desperately protecting will be destroyed
Doesn't it make you feel uneasy?

I think it was really hard.

However, the existence of children as they are
It has been suppressed for many years
Calling out to the real you

I want to live my true self
I want my voice to be heard
I think I'm making you scream from the depths of your heart.

There's no right answer outside of you.
Please listen to your inner voice.

I don't think I need to act anymore.

Thank you, Marimo-sama, for your heart-to-heart consultation.
My name is Watanabe Gensho, the chief priest of Genmyo-ji Temple of the Nichiren sect.

I think it took courage to ask this question, and I will answer it with sincerity so that those feelings are not wasted.

First, I would like to talk about the Buddha described in the sutras.
When Buddha (Buddha) was alive, there was a person called a daiba (daiba) who harassed the Buddha terribly. One day, a disciple asks a question, “Why doesn't Buddha speak ill of his mother?”
Then the Buddha said, “Actually, that harassing me was my mentor in a previous life. And in this life, I am harassed by my mentor for changing my shape. I overcame that test and promised to level up my soul even more than I have now.” I was told.

I think Marimo-sama also had a very painful experience, but when you learn from the Buddha's teachings and think about it, “Your current suffering is something you promised in your previous life.” And those who have harassed you, and those who will harass you from now on, may be your mentor in the past.

When you think “why do we have to enjoy such suffering now,” I think that you are suffering now because it is a time for you to grow one step further.

You won't be able to find the cause of your dislike even if you ask others. The only thing you can change is your own heart.
I can fully understand your feelings after having a painful experience, but please refer to such a way of thinking as well.

I think acting is also necessary depending on the content.
It's not “I laugh because I'm happy,” it's “I'm happy because I laugh.”
For example, the moment you tried to act isn't there yet, but the moment you smile and make a happy face, your heart is already happy.
If you keep doing that, your heart will naturally become happy.
No one will be happy even if they just keep putting up with it over and over again. Please try to perform while trying to imagine “Marimo, who is happier than anyone else and full of charity” in your head.
Your mind and the environment in front of you will definitely change.

You are now in the position of a mother, and it is a training period where your soul will level up even more.
From the bottom of my heart, I wish you happiness. Gassho

It seems that even world-famous movie actors lose their true self because of ❝ acting ❞ as an occupational disease in the actor industry.
This is because they may be bound by acting characters, and they have been forced to act since that time due to their lives at the behest of their parents since childhood.
Then, gradually, they seek their original appearance and naturalness, and it seems that they love nature (⇔ people).
Are you aware that ❝ humans ❞ have always intervened in your long-standing worries? When ❝ human beings (niga) ❞ enter, convenience and inconvenience are created there.
But that is my ego, which tries to accommodate and hurt others.
For example, even fishermen, forestry, and farmers dealing with nature will not suffer if they really do it alone and only deal with nature.
As the number of people who belong to a union, support their families, and get involved increases, people become partners and they are compatible.
Even in our monk industry, due to the enlargement of sectarian organizations, we are bound by various human values, and there are times when we get stuck when people intervene.
Neither the fields nor the vegetables get angry, don't worry. I don't even act.
Humans are angry and worried. That's because humans are our opponents.
Humans lie to themselves throughout the ages and act. It is also said that they tell an average of 30 lies a day.
On the other hand, there are also people who are employed in jobs such as complaint handling clerks who work for human convenience, and are not burdened.
That's because I didn't look good on my partner due to my own convenience, and I'm living my own life properly.
The convenience of trying to fit in with a human partner is actually my own convenience after all.
If you want to be freed from that, don't make a nice face and live your own life.
Try to stick through yourself without fear of being disliked or rejected.
When it comes to things you don't like or trouble, be good at telling the other person “that's tough.”
I'm really good at myself.
Notice that nothing is lost there.
You don't lose anything just because you don't like it.
There are times when people in the same industry like me dislike me because I have more responses than other monks.
Still! I want everyone who is struggling to get rid of their worries and smile! I will do my best to eliminate the worries of this world! This is my mission as a monk! ←acting?
Please don't worry about it, and feel free to contact us at any time.

Nice to meet you, Marimo.

Is the environment you grew up in front of you right now?

There probably isn't a time when I experienced loneliness between a kind husband and a cute child when I was a kid.
Everything is something you're holding alone.

Would you like to give your child the same thought?
no.
I'm sure you don't want your kids to feel the same way you do.

Marimo.
Your current home isn't where you grew up.
There's no father or mother there.

It's your new world, surrounded by a kind husband and cute children.

Until now, I've been able to perform smiles even when forced to.
What would you do without playing who you wanted to be right now?

You can just forget about it.
You can show your honest self there.
This is a stage prepared for you.

When people want to be like this, they first imitate shapes.
Have you ever directed yourself by imitating people around you like, TV characters, or entertainers?
People don't even know how to hold chopsticks unless they imitate them.
As you continue to do that, at some point, it will become your own.

Now that your child has been born, isn't it possible for you to create a new self?

It's fine.
I'm sure you'll be able to build the happy family you want.