Monk, have you ever stopped being able to do what you like?

I used to study to become a sociology researcher.
I've loved books since I was a kid, and as I grew up, I started reading mainly reportages and travel essays that touched on social and cultural issues. My parents were teachers, and I thought that if I could become a teacher and continue reading as a hobby, I wouldn't have any complaints.
I went on to college and was fascinated by reading books related to sociology, and I wanted to study more deeply and earnestly, so I persuaded my reluctant parents and went on to graduate school.
However, when I faced sociological literature as training aimed at becoming a researcher, nothing was so painful and difficult to read.
I was impatient, saying, “Damn, I got into a path that didn't suit me at all,” but when I looked around, there wasn't a single person having fun doing research. The graduate students and faculty were all struggling with literature while struggling.
There are also people in the Buddhist community who “like Buddhism.” There are also people who make up their mind, become monks, and become monks. I personally know a few of them, but they don't all seem to be having fun since becoming monks. Some say, “It wasn't what I thought. I also heard stories about people who shuddered in anger saying “I was deceived,” and communication was interrupted.
I think, if you can be prepared to seriously face things you've enjoyed within the scope of your hobbies, your partner will quickly seem difficult and formidable.
I think that the fact that something you used to enjoy just by liking it can be thought of as a sign that your attitude and ability have reached a level where you can confront it head-on because you can no longer enjoy it and see it as a formidable thing.

The other day, I read a book with a title like “The Last Unexplored Area: Tokyo University of the Arts.” Although the genre is different from yours, they are people who are trying to live with one arm in “That Path.” Among them, there was a person who talked about his major, saying, “Even if I don't like it, I can't leave for some reason.”
I don't hate dealing with words either (I like it). However, there is an unevenness in Hasunoha's response pace, or rather momentum. Even if you don't answer, you use words on a daily basis, and I think the intensity of the motivation to “express and answer here” changes. We have fundamental teachings, so if we go to the extreme, we always say the same thing. I wonder if that's why I sometimes think, “Let's get married in the past.” So, the momentum drops.
Honestly, I'll be away from that time for a while. Last December, too, there was a period of “somehow not watching for a week.” But in the meantime, “No, I like answers, but I like using words, but I haven't done it!” Or, I wasn't in a hurry. Rather, I think it was a period of having new experiences and reinterpreting the words I had up until now.
What bothers me is that “one day it suddenly changed.” I don't know what happened, but if you keep in mind that “words are a source of misunderstanding,” I wonder if “did you do it?” I don't know, though.
After that, it means “you can't accomplish anything just by liking it.” In other words, technology must be refined. It's the same for people at the University of the Arts, but we also have to learn how to use words as techniques.
“I can't do what I like...” Hmm, that's not true. At that time, they probably “didn't like it a little bit anymore.” Hearts change, so don't be sad. Become honest with the reality of “not being able to write.” You can't help insisting “I'm in tears, but I'm not sad,” right? I almost think that once more material is accumulated, it will make me want to write. There is no such thing as “you have to keep liking what you like.” If I write because it's my job, I think it's necessary not to depend on the feeling of “liking.”
The answer to “I can no longer do what I love ~” is the same. It's the same as Mr. Yoshihiro's words (when you're sick ~) that Hayashi was introduced to the other day.

Reading certainly allows you to know the ways of thinking of various people through letters, and your knowledge increases. But this is all a world of thought. It's a completely different world from reality.
I was able to ask questions here while saying that I can't read or write the characters. This is probably true.

You're probably just feeling like you can't write and can't read.
I think humans are creatures that are easily swayed by feelings, thoughts, hearts, and thoughts. You probably want to look away from the reality and facts in front of you and prioritize your thoughts. Delusions can be fun.

However, people are living in reality. We use this body to live in the present moment. There's no past or future, and I'm alive even if I touch the current situation and can't read letters. Japanese people in the old days probably lived without problems even if they couldn't read or write. It's just a tool. Buddhism is a way to save even those who are blind or deaf.

Don't worry, it's fine. If you learn properly, you will be saved.

Nice to meet you! I'm Asuka Goto, a nun manga artist.

I love worshiping Shinto and Buddha and drawing comics.
I started from a normal home, became a monk, and practiced ascetic practices, so I don't have a temple.
But I loved praying, and I loved it, and before I knew it, I had finished my ascetic practice and became a monk.

I also love drawing comics, and I became a manga artist because I wanted to draw the worldview I found in my favorite prayers in comics.

But there were times when it became very difficult to pray.

Also, there often come a time when drawing comics becomes difficult.

There are times when I think that what I'm drawing isn't interesting to people, and I'm so worried that I can't draw for no reason.
Then, like when you're strangely denied from your head... but when you actually accept that denial... I think it's what's called a slump.

At that time, I was once told this by someone who was very senior as a manga artist and is now deceased.

“Sometimes I get worried and can't draw because I love it and want to draw something good!
They're all the same! you're not the only one. “Relax your shoulders!”

There are things you won't be able to do if you like it.

Rather than being uselessly jittery when you can't do it, it might be better to set aside time by doing just what you can do now.

And the “fun!” within you Extend an antenna that feels like
Let's try to do something as fun as possible.

“It's fun!” “Things I love” springs up again in response to the call.

After that, there were times when I was able to do things I liked that I couldn't do if I had done it to a rabbit without saying four of five.

Let's first stop binding ourselves if we can't do it or don't come.