I'm ashamed of myself

I understand that feeling very well. I want to do it like everyone else. They probably want to do it perfectly.

First, you've decided that you're nervous easily or that you don't remember well, etc., but there are no people who aren't nervous, and if you don't remember well, does that mean you're compared to someone else? Maybe they have developed a habit of looking at things compared to others. No one thinks you'll be able to remember you just the way you are. You can take it slow.

Surprisingly, people around me aren't looking for perfection, and you'll be able to understand the work through repetition. Just ask what you don't understand. I don't think people who listen to it will feel bad either.

Monks also naturally remember long sutras when they read them every day. I'm not trying to remember.
The more impatient you try to remember, the harder it is to remember.
Calm down, what's wrong with going at your own pace. With that feeling, try to be a little bullish and do your best.

Nice to meet you, Shion.
This is Nakamura Taishaku from Tokushima Prefecture, the temple of Dharma and ceiling paintings.

Shion has started a part-time job, but she's afraid of failing or getting scolded because she can't remember her job.

Since I've just started my part-time job, I'm obsessed with the fear that I might fail because I don't understand everything. That's because we're counting things we can't do.
So what can Shion “do”? Is it about arranging products? Is it counting money? Or is it cleaning?

When I started working for a company and was not recognized by anyone, I was so thorough that only cleaning was second to none. Even in places where I usually sweep things without moving them, I went out of my way to move and sweep things, then I went to an elephant. As a result, I was told, “Once you clean, even a rag will be clean.”
Once you can be praised for one thing, the number of things you can do in a potato pickling style will increase.

Kobo Daishi Kukai also said, “What you're looking for isn't far away. It's inside of you. Why don't you look for it?”

What Shion can do is in Shion. Look for things you can do in your part-time job.

My head is empty, stupid, and stupid, so I can't do difficult work.
I'm particularly bad at numbers. I'm not good at PC work, so I can't use Excel at all. There are a lot of things I don't understand no matter how much they explain.
When I was young, I also worked late-night part-time at 7-Eleven, but now at convenience stores, even if the job description has increased and I'm told to do it again, I still have a spoon
I'll throw it. (made of plastic for sweets)
There were times when I worked part-time at a karaoke box.
What we were good at was quickly wrapping the microphone cord in the room after the customer had used it.
I learned Code Blade Yamaki by doing night after night, but recently there are no cords with wireless microphones. That kind of technology is completely useless. 。
My next part-time job was at an izakaya. It was an easy job, but since I learned how to drink alcohol there, my body was irretrievable...
It's natural for a job to be unsuitable.
What you don't understand even if you ask it may simply not be right for you.
If you think “yeah, this is impossible,” stop quickly without making your negative feelings last long, and let your new part-time job blossom.
I think it's good to experience various part-time jobs.
Work may be difficult when you think about it from the surface, but it is fundamentally about seeing, listening, speaking, and doing. It's like that. It makes me think simply.

Shion

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

Every human being grows by failing, and there are few people who don't fail.

The question is whether we can make use of it to better connect to the next even if we make a mistake.

Also, there are two main types of failure: those that are irretrievable and those that are irretrievable.

Most failures are irreparable, but irrevocable ones are failures that result in the “death” of oneself or another person. As expected, if only “death” is for others, even if it is possible to atone for the crime, there is no such thing as whether the person who died due to it will return, and it is still irretrievable...

Now, I'm exaggerating a bit, but what I'm trying to say here is that other than an irreparable failure (failure that results in the death of one's own person or another), after all, there isn't much of a deal.

Therefore, don't be afraid to a certain extent, do your best without being scared, and even if there are a few failures among them, if you have made a firm reflection and make use of it next time, that's fine.

Also, a part-time job is a part-time job, of course, that is different if you make a living from a part-time job, but I think it would be good to be changed to something that suits you more without being particular about one place, as a step, stepping stone, or trial for the employment you are aiming for.

Please take it easy, think about it casually, and make use of it as part of your social studies.

When I was a student, I also worked a lot of part-time jobs. Among them, the scariest thing in particular was the late-night security of the pachinko parlor before it opened, and when they were broken into by a group of foreigners who set up back roms (devices to make balls come out well), I was able to run away without being impatient, and I was able to deal with police reports, and I was able to quickly disperse them. Now that too is a memory from long ago (after all, it's a species that lives).

I don't think Shion would run into such a dangerous situation. It's not Sanma-san from the Akashiya family, but please try to overcome your fear of failure here with the spirit of “making a full profit just by being alive.”

I pray for good deeds.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho