Can I practice ascetic practices? It's hard to decide on a denomination.
Hello. This is my first time asking a question.
A lot of things are often swirling around in my head, and I'm in a mess.
Making it “empty” is very difficult.
My autonomic nervous system was severely disrupted 6 or 7 years ago, and I was so sick that death came that far. With the help of various people and various treatment methods, I am somehow able to live now even though there are minor problems.
Every day of being alive seems like an ascetic practice, and although improvements have been made in the head (heart or soul, maybe) part, it is impossible to surpass “something” no matter what.
Currently, I'm wondering if the only way to practice Buddhism is, or if that path is optimal.
I did a lot of research on the internet, but over time, I couldn't understand the translation when I thought about denominations, training details, etc.
(I also feel that what comes up as an ascetic experience is limited.)
On the physical side, I'm worried about whether I can endure severe training (don't lie down, fasting, just stand in the extreme cold, keep walking for 1000 days...). Also, I wonder if I'll feel like I'm going to die.
For me, it was so painful that I felt like I had done that part of the training once. (I'm not taking ascetic practices lightly)
If that's impossible, does that mean you can't become a monk unless you're healthy?
When I apply this situation and the balance between the content and purpose of the training to myself, I don't know what to choose.
Please be kind to me like this, Professor.
Thank you very much for taking the time to read.
