Why do we have to be alive?

The Buddha lived until the age of 80, but just before his death, he tweeted like this.
“The world is beautiful”

You seem to know everything, but if you ask your old man, it's like a blind person who can't see anything.
The fact that your life is there now is the result of many relationships and lives.
Have you ever thought about how much life it took to grow that far?

The world is big, and there are lots of interesting things.
It may be your own fault when you die, but it would be a waste to say clearly that you die without seeing such wonderful or beautiful things and without having a pleasant experience.

Every experience, joy or sorrow, is a spice for enjoying life.
One way or another, death will come, so let that happen.

Don't you want to know what the Buddha saw and tweeted “The world is beautiful” at the end of his long and eventful life?

What the teacher said is not wrong.
However, there is a mistake in your understanding. It is a mistake to think that life and death will go the way you want, that is, “I am living with my own strength” or “if I think I die, I can die.”

Let's say you're not satisfied with the meaning of life that the monk explains here, and you decide to “die.” But you can't actually die. On the other hand, it is also true that many people have committed suicide, so what exactly is the difference?

It is impossible to die unless there is a “relationship” of death. People who were involved in suicide continued to question “the meaning of life” more strongly and violently than anyone else alive today in a sense. But I couldn't find it myself. And not only that, I was “killed” in a sense because the environment, circumstances, and various other conditions, including myself, overlapped.

If you think about it, life wasn't born by choosing one's own. I wasn't born into this world with any meaning or purpose. Even if my parents ask for something, it seems like that's not everything for me.

That's the case in the first place. It didn't start with a meaning. It starts with the “fact” that it was born out of nowhere. It's “being kept alive.”

So, you've lived until now even if you don't know the meaning of life. And it will continue to be used. Conversely, even if you don't know the meaning of living, when you die, you must die.

But that's painful, isn't it?

That's why we have religion. There is Buddhism. That's why there is a way of life that takes meaning from it.

If you decide that there is no point in living because you don't have the desire to “do it,” then you should thoroughly try that. You should just hang around the whole time without doing anything.

But I can't even do that. I can't even thoroughly decide on my own mind. “Is it okay to leave it like this?” I'm driven by “I'm anxious, I'm not satisfied” and “I want to do something.” Actually, now you are asking for meaning here.

If you live with only your own strength, you can thoroughly define your own thoughts, and you can choose death the way you want.
But that's not the case. “It is being utilized in various influences.” This is what Buddhism preaches about “good fortune (good fortune).” It means “I and the world are connected.”
If that's the case, wouldn't it be more satisfying to do something for the world or for me? This is because you are living the “life” where you can't die even if you want to die, and where you have to die even if you don't want to die, you are living now.

That being said, I don't want to die, so I breathe, eat, and sleep.
If you die even though you don't want to die (your obsession with life remains), worries and suffering will occur.
Once you have truly lost your obsession with life, you can “attain Buddhism.”

People in the world who commit suicide probably haven't lost their obsession.
If my life were better now, I would want to live it.
If you win hundreds of millions of dollars in the lottery, you would definitely want to live a little longer.

Practicing Buddhism is necessary in order to really get rid of obsessions.
The ideal is to die after your obsession is over.
If you have an obsession, you'll only suffer even if you happen to die.

It's already completely winter, isn't it?
Until just the other day, many cosmos flowers were blooming in the tomb of the temple, but fall is over and almost all of them have died.
A flower's life is so ephemeral and lonely.

However, I think there is something we can learn from the way flowers live. They do their best to grow and blossom without complaining about the place where they were born called graves or how they were born called cosmos. Then, when seeds are formed, they don't get attached to the beautiful appearance of the flower now, let go of the petals, and drop the seeds formed underneath them.

Aren't we humans the same?
Isn't it just about living to the fullest, living to the fullest, without dreams, hopes, goals, or desires, just living to the fullest as a human being, living to the fullest as a child of your parents, living to the fullest as a parent if a child is born in the future, studying to the fullest, and working people working hard?

I felt like your question was full of questions. I answered as best I could.
I think that's fine.

Of course, it's OK to have dreams, hopes, goals, and desires, and if you have them, it will sometimes help you overcome difficulties. It will also motivate you to improve yourself.
However, I think I can live to the fullest without them.
Please do your best to live like a flower.