I don't know what to do.

Soa-san

I feel like I'm truant, but I don't know why
I'm unwittingly scratching my arm
Hit your head at home
I have no appetite
I don't feel motivated
I can't laugh anymore
I shed tears even when I'm not sad...

What are these events
What the hell is it telling you

What are the worrisome descriptions

“People say they laugh a lot at school, but I always get really tired every time I laugh.
I'm tired of making facial expressions. ”

You smile a lot even though you're not funny
When something that people think is strange happens, they end up laughing.

You push and kill the true heart you feel
Aren't you always laughing

Repeated betrayal of one's true heart
I think it's causing invisible injuries.

What are you laughing for
What is turning oneself away
Please feel free to ask.

Laugh when you want to laugh
When you're sad, you're sad
Suffer when it's hard

Honest emotional expression
I decided to take back Soa-san
I think they're connected.

The psychiatrist may have been an unsuitable teacher, but there is also a possibility of “depression,” so it is better to continue consulting with specialized institutions.
In Buddhism, I think it's pretty lucky to be born a human and encounter Buddhism.
If you know the joy of studying Buddhism, I think life will be worthwhile.

(T_T) Hmm, I think you're lying to yourself somewhere or overdoing it.
I don't think there are many people who can guess what's in your heart, but there are many people who properly understand and accept you. I think we should find someone we can talk to about family matters, etc. even if we don't have a relationship where we can understand everything. I think what you need is someone who has a good understanding.
Inside the house, they weren't always able to do what they wanted to do, so I think they were at the mercy of their parents.
I think it was painful for parents to quickly become grumpy or scolded if they didn't listen to what was said.
They don't want to make their parents angry or grumpy, so aren't they playing good kids?
This is a common case in families in Japan where children are stressed.
I think everyone has had a similar experience.
However, the degree and level vary from family to family, so if something comes to mind, I think it's a good idea to keep a little distance from your parents only in your heart.
It doesn't stick and doesn't leave.
A distance that is easy for you to touch is fine.
Maybe you're looking for freedom of mind.
What holds me back is a rope called my own thoughts. Why don't you untie that rope?
There are also people who come to zazen sessions with their parents.
If there is a festival that comes to mind, please visit the temple. (^<^) It's Saitama.
You will be able to face yourself, be free from your parents, be properly loved and respected by your parents, and you will be able to love your parents too, and you will be able to live a better and brighter life. (^<^)
If it hasn't changed even after 1 month, please contact us.

Why don't you remove the common sense that you have to go to school? Isn't it painful because I think I have to force myself to go to school?
My son from a temple of the same denomination in the neighborhood stopped going to school, and his friend came to play in the middle of the night, and it seems that the day-night reversal lifestyle continued for a long time. There was also a time when I went to the Daiken School, but when I finished the first semester, it went back to the same state. The world said that the trigger was probably because my father died suddenly and the course environment suddenly changed.
Around that time, I became acquainted with a girl from Sammura in Hokkaido via email, visited there and hit it off with her, and as a result, I even thought about getting married. To that end, they thought it was necessary to go to school first, and it seems that they re-entered the Daiken School, obtained qualifications, and graduated from university.
Each person has their own way of life. I think Buddhism does not stereotype “it must be like this,” but rather encourages each person to live according to their own individuality.
But I'm not saying quit school. It means you don't have to be tormented by the idea that you have to go.

So-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

I asked you about how difficult it is this time.

I'm guessing that contrary to your own will, you are at a loss and a little pessimistic because there is nothing you can do about it...

The cause is unknown... there may be things you don't know for sure, but in Buddhism, I will explain that everything in this world always has causes and conditions, or causation, to lead to that point.

However, the psychiatrist I went to before is so terrible... he's a ridiculous teacher who doesn't understand.

Now, let's get to the main subject, but don't give up on the unknown cause as unknown cause. Then, no solution can be found, and time may just go by in vain.

Therefore, once, in order to search for what is the cause, I think it would be a good idea to go to a hospital that deals with the treatment of chronic fatigue or orthostatic regulation disorder (10% of junior high school students fall under some kind, and is particularly common among adolescent girls), and first ask what tests and treatments are available. If necessary, it would be a good idea to receive a second opinion at another hospital.

Also, if possible, a decrease in immune function in some complicated place may have an effect.

Anyway, once you know the cause, I think the solution will be faster. Each one is about physical function, and what seems to apply can be erased, so I recommend that you try being hit.

Also, the future ahead, the purpose of life is simply fun after being well, so please approach things related to physical function first and foremost by improving things related to physical function.

I pray for good deeds.

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho