I think I'm going to die because I can't work

It would be a waste if they die because they “can't work.”

You don't have to work. It's okay to live on welfare. There's nothing to be ashamed of.
If those with high abilities are superior and those with low abilities are inferior, that is no different from the world of studying at school.
I also want you to know that there are worlds where this is not the case. The superiority or inferiority of ability has nothing to do with salvation in Buddhism.

Now, even among them, if by all means, I think it through and ultimately arrive at the answer that there is no other way out is death, and if I choose it, then maybe there's nothing I can do to stop it.
However, if you have some time to listen to my story, I would like you to listen to “Your Voice of Life,” not me or the like. This is something I called on other people here at hasunoha,

Does your heart agree with your death, does your eyes agree, does your stomach and intestines agree, does your hand agree, or does your life agree?
Has the heart abandoned the pulse, the eyes seeing the world, the gastrointestinal tract digesting and absorbing energy, and the hands grasping and spinning the hope in front of them?

I would like you to do it after hearing that voice of life. If you can't hear it at all, it's nothing. Let's eat something delicious. It doesn't have to be a luxury item. What you like, this is all you want to eat. If you become aware of your body at that time, I think you'll be able to hear voices. There is a voice of life saying “I want to live.”

Isn't that fine even after that?

For my part, I want Pooko-san to wake up tomorrow too. And I want them to be happy to wake up. That's all.

You've had a hard time at home and in society, haven't you? Get away from there even for a moment and have time to interact with “The Life Called Pooko-san.”
(If you have a little more time, please read the questions and answers of people who suffer in the same way from the “meaning of life” or “about death” category in Hasunoha's questions and answers here.)

You don't have to work.

Pooko-san is not precious because she can do something. What I have now as Pooko-san is precious.

I read it. I read your thoughts.
Nevertheless, you have the life you have been given, and I think there is meaning in being able to live.

I know you are worried, but please look back calmly without being swept away by your current emotions.

Each person's life is also important.

I'm sure you don't understand.

Please talk about various things while thinking calmly again tomorrow. Please consult with local governments, job safety, or medical institutions and listen to the opinions of third parties.

After that, it's not too late.

I sincerely pray to God, Buddha, and your ancestors that you will find your own life from now on and that you will have a rich and healthy future every day.

Good evening. As for “this is my first time for someone like you,” that's right. You're the only one in the world. I wonder what happened? Did they cut corners on something? Was the way of communicating too abstract? If you don't mind, why don't you tell me? Even if that boss doesn't approve of you, we boys may be able to approve of your actions. Also, maybe I can tell you why they affirm it.
The other day, when I went outside, it was cold and my body shivered. My teeth are clenching, and my arms seem to be cramping. Your body was desperately trying to get a fever, wasn't it? Nothing is under “my” control. Rather the opposite. You have to be honest with that body.
So, even when I got in the car and started the engine, I couldn't run it for a while. The first thing to do is survive. I knew my body was saying that.
I wrote “I'll hold my breath” in “thank you.” Have you ever put up with not being able to breathe? Would you like to try it out? After two or three minutes, it will be painful, and you'll breathe again. That's not your operation. The “I” you are referring to is a story created by the brain; it is only a small part of you.
I think you've only tested part of your potential yet. There are plenty of people and opportunities I haven't met yet. You want to work, right?
Also, there are people who acknowledge you as you are. It's just that we haven't met yet. so.
I want them to survive today.

postscript.
“Thank you” was added and I read it. As far as I read the sentences, I didn't feel that they were “too detailed.” However, it is not something I can diagnose, and I think it would be worth a medical examination (interview). It's new, and I feel that some power has dwelt in my writing. Also, please ask questions.

As a characteristic of you, you know one thing about Asperger's, right? Blaming yourself in this way is also a characteristic of that.
So don't worry. If you can cool down and understand yourself, I don't even want to do that ^ ^

People at work understand that very well, and while you're cooling down, isn't it okay to take a day off ^-^ that's how you get along well with your own body while getting along well with your own body, and get people around you to understand it.

If it's a work environment where people don't understand you, look for another job because it's out of date. I think there are also workplaces where they can understand it properly.

Well anyway, for now, rest your body and brain, follow your body's function as you feel, and live your life.

I've seen your question, so this is also something related.

Well, when people with Asperger's syndrome are explained in a detour, I don't understand the meaning at all.
So it's natural that it doesn't make sense.

I don't understand the meaning hidden between the lines of words.
That's why it's not cool.

It's impossible to team up with people to do something.
This isn't your fault either.

This is already your personality.
There are good things about Asperger's, too.
It's an original way of thinking, and my head is full of treasures.

Any job you can immerse yourself in alone is fine.
Why don't you let me know the value of my existence?

It's okay if you don't have any friends in the world.
Rather, Asperger's can interfere with life.

Is everything really over yet?
While being born into this world...