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Why was the Earth born and I am here

When I hear epic stories such as celestial classes from a long time ago, I wonder why I'm here... Why was the Earth born... There were times when I felt uneasy, but at the beginning of this year, I suddenly didn't know what I was and I panicked.

Why can we recognize words when we can recognize what we see? why am I here? Questions come up one after another, and I can't help but feel uneasy.

I feel like even the scenery I've seen up until now looks different.

I think it will stay like this for the rest of I think I'm going to go crazy. It hurts my heart to think about so many things again.

Once I've thought about the meaning of being alive, it's over. I get scared when I see headlines like that on the internet, and it also makes me sad when I hear stories that people who study philosophy often commit suicide. (It's strange that I'm worried even though I'm not studying philosophy.)

I really didn't think I liked the things I had liked until now.

If I can't help it due to anxiety, I can't move, and I can't go outside easily.

I liked to eat meat, eggs, etc. before I panicked, but I thought they had killed animals, so eating became less enjoyable.

I also think it's better to die if I can't help it due to anxiety about the future... but I'm scared and can't help it, so I don't want to die even if it's painful.

I'm stuck typing, so I think there are many places where sentences are wrong, but why are people alive? I would like to receive words that would make me even a little bit positive, such as what should I do in the future.

Thank you very much for your support.

4 Zen Responses

auspicious

“At the beginning of this year, I suddenly didn't understand what I was.”
So did we “know” until the beginning of this year? That's probably not the case. You haven't understood this for a long time, have you? In other words, “I've lived without understanding until now.” If so, it means “you can live without understanding.” What I feel like I can't live without understanding is “my own thoughts.”

There's nothing I can rely on more than “my own thoughts.” That's because I think it changes from place to place depending on relationships (meaning relationships, conditions, environments, objects, etc.).

So, when it comes to “why am I here” and “why was the Earth born,” in terms of Buddhism, everything has a cause. It's the reason for causal retribution, the law of cause and effect, and good fortune.

“When this exists, he has it. When this happens, they happen.
When this is not there, he is none. When this will perish, he will perish.”

That's it. There is a “cause” where that happens and that is why the Earth exists, and you exist. The point is that there is a “cause” rather than a “meaning.”

An absolute ruler did not create something called “the earth” or “you” with meaning, and it is caused by the complex intertwining of all direct and indirect causes - this is called “what happens by relationship (yo) - luck-.” It just so happens that it's in the shape of the Earth, in your shape. Even if the Earth and you know all causes, you “don't know” all the causes.

This is called “mysterious (puzzling).” It's not “I don't understand,” it's that there is a cause, and “I understand why,” but “I don't get far or enemy in human thoughts.”

It's about “admitting that you don't understand what you don't understand.”

Then, “meaning” arises from the fact that “I don't understand” has become like this and is being kept alive in this way in the present. It means it for the first time here.

It is not meaning → fact of existence (luck), but fact of existence (good fortune) → meaning.

Now I don't know the cause, but let's find dignity in the miraculous fact that all causes are in place and lucky for me. Anyway, if it were me, the meat and eggs would be delicious, and I'd like to start with “Thank you, thank you for the meal.”
I think it is necessary to question “the meaning of life.” Rather, if you cheat on this, “was this good?” I don't feel like it's going to be a life where I'm not satisfied.

Recommendations on Buddhist philosophy

Naga-sama

This is Kawaguchi Hidetoshi. This is my humble answer to the question.

Certainly, in Western philosophy, I think there are times when people fall into nihilism, cynicism, and pessimism.

Even with the same philosophy, Buddhist philosophy is different. There is also sophisticated epistemology and logic.

I would be grateful if you could learn Buddhist philosophy from now on in order to live better, to search for true truth, and for supreme comfort and happiness (enlightenment, nirvana).

Kawaguchi Hidetoshi Gassho

“Apology”

Since the sentences I posted quoted Buddhist scriptures, treatises, ancestral records, etc. and did not specify the legal theory beforehand, the content of the answers was advice that placed a specific emphasis on popular values different from Buddhism.
There was a possibility that this answer would hinder people studying Buddhism, so I deleted all of the answers without permission.

Instead, I would like to give you a brief overview of Buddhism here.

“Buddhism”
There are a wide variety of approaches to Buddhism and its practices, but what lies beyond that path is liberation.

In Mahayana Buddhism, Buddhism begins when the Bodhi Heart appears to that person, many reincarnations are repeated, and while meeting many masters and Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, all of that person is dedicated through a long period of ascetic practice, and the Bodhisattva mind is revealed there.
From the beginning of the path, people are guided by the Bodhi Heart and arrive at liberation, and what they realize there is also Bodhi Heart.

At the beginning of the road, personal bodhicitta, which was a desperate and pure desire to seek freedom from one's own suffering, eventually engraves indomitable will and devotion backed by prayers to save all beings into that person, and an impersonal bodhisattva is released.
People who walk the path to such bodhisattvas are called bodhisattvas, and the source of a bodhisattva's will, faith, and driving force is bodhisattva, which is realized during liberation.
On the road where the Bodhisattva walks, a wide variety of ascetic practices appear, which are the cause of insight, liberation, and complete fulfillment as a Buddha that continues beyond that.
The path of Japanese Buddhism also originates from this road, so all paths come back to that.

It is said that that person's path is a walk opened and led by an encounter with a wise man, who is that person's true mentor, and a reunion with a law friend who walked the path while a long time ago.
I hope there are no obstacles to Naga's encounter and progress.

I hope for this merit
Universal for everything
We and sentient beings
Minakyosei Buddhism

Gassho

Everything is a cell in the body called the universe

In our lives, we don't worry about the wind that blows or the raindrops that fall one by one. This is because it is a phenomenon that passes in an instant.
Kobo Daishi Kukai said, “Everything that has a voice (sound) has life.” They say that wind, raindrops, insects, soil, and even stones have life.
This is because they are all like cells that make up a large body called the “universe.” Everything is brought to life in space, and everything makes up the universe. In that way, nothing in this world is useless.

It's the same for us humans. It's just the same phenomenon as wind and rain, born from outer space and returning to space after death.
So is it over when I die? That's different.
They are born from outer space, returned to space, and then born from outer space again.

It's like leaves that sprout in spring wither and fall in the fall, nourish the tree, and sprout again in spring.
All lives are the same and eternal.
So there's no need to be anxious.
We're always being kept alive by something, and we're making use of something.

Buddhism is a religion that sees the entire universe as oneself, and it is esoteric Buddhism that has culminated in it.
If you are interested, please ask again anytime.