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I don't want to be the woman my husband wants

We've been married for 9 years.
There was a big gap between the “wife I want to love” my husband wants and the “good wife” I think.
The “good wife” I had in mind is as follows.
・Do your best at housework, childcare, and work.
・I'm always smiling.
・Be sure to say hello.
・Speak softly without getting emotional even if you are dissatisfied.
・Don't be grumpy even if you don't feel well.
・Even if they are equal at home, they stand up for a husband in front of others.
・Maintain a feminine figure.
It took quite a bit of effort regardless of this, and I think it was almost perfect.
But the “wife I want to love” my husband was looking for was as follows.
・Housework, childcare, and work are decent.
・Express your emotions in a straightforward manner.
(Dissatisfaction is emotionally appealing. If you don't feel well, don't hesitate to get grumpy. (If I'm in a bad mood, I don't even say hello.)
・If you stand up in front of yourself, it doesn't matter if you disrespect yourself where you are.
・The inner world is important, so it doesn't matter what shape you have.
Quite the opposite. I noticed this about 2 years ago.
Until then, I had been treated very poorly by my husband, and I tried even harder to play a good wife to be loved somehow, but it was a complete waste of effort.
I was so miserable that I cried in the bath every day.
From a husband's point of view, a wife who always smiles is probably not worth loving.
That's because I'm smiling no matter how I behave.
An emotional wife won't laugh if she doesn't work hard, so it's probably worth loving.
I continued to be treated poorly for a long time, my love for my husband completely withered, and when I naturally began to take a cold attitude, my husband gradually took good care of me. (But at last, they're treated like humans. (Last year, I was only given 20,000 yen of child support that I hadn't been paid until now.)
It's easier now, and I can't be kind to my husband I don't love, so I can say this is fine, but the truth is, I want to be a married couple that cares for each other.
But I don't want that from my husband. Every day is empty.
It's probably an ideal wife for my husband, but I feel like my heart is rotting away.
I wonder if my husband somehow doesn't understand my feelings...
Or would it be easier if I changed my way of thinking?

5 Zen Responses

[EDIT] There's no doubt that she's a good wife, but

There's been a lot of AI news lately.
The future where robots will appear in everyday life is not far off.

Portrait of a good wife.
I certainly think this would be a good wife.
But when I read it, I thought this was like an AI robot.
Doing everything without emotion is an AI robot's specialty.
As far as I've read, the “wife I want to love” that husbands seek is probably a more human being.
The fact that they began to take a cold attitude and were treated a little bit as a human also somehow seems to tell the story.

A married couple is called a mirror.
Husbands who face each other with their robotic wife (sorry for the bad way to say it) who killed their emotions may have developed a similar trend.

A “couple that cares for each other” is probably a unique group of people who have mutual feelings, sometimes clash, sometimes understand, and sometimes accept each other.
There is a saying “I can't want that for my husband,” but as far as I've read, my husband seems to want that.
“Don't put up with it, just hit me with everything! I'm prepared to accept it! I think they're thinking, “I want to be the best person to understand.”

Please don't be bound by the “image of a good wife” or “the ideal wife your husband wants,” and let's be free.
It's very difficult to change your partner, but it's easy to change yourself (^_^)
If you change yourself, your opponent will change right away. they're a married couple, aren't they?

I just want my husband to say one thing...
“The inner world is important, so it doesn't matter what shape you have.”
This can be said because Mirai is doing her best to maintain her style!!
If you were actually sloppy, you would definitely be boo boo (laughs)
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[Postscript]
I see... it was a serious relationship. I'm sorry.
He's full of games, and when he does things he doesn't like without reading his opponent's emotions, I don't think he's a very mature man (-_-;)
Personally, it seems like Mirai was looking for his ideal wife and pampered her husband too much.
It seems to be very stressful for me to adapt to that husband and become emotional, but I feel that pampering him and making him like him is different. (Sorry, I can't write any more due to the character limit;)

You don't have to be the woman you want.

Good evening. Sorry for the late response.
I read your question and thank you note.

After all, it's better to change the way you think.
Don't wait 3 hours for the game.

My wife also gets mad at me because I just look at my tablet.
I'm sorry for getting lost in the game rather than capturing a woman's heart.
As the same man, I apologize.

There are limits to things.
I think it's fine to have a shorter temper when it comes to games.

The game doesn't do laundry.
Games don't make food.
Gaming doesn't make you pay.

The problem is with the game.
Rather than changing the way we think, we should change the power relationship with games.

Aren't you trying to play a good person but becoming a convenient person?

If you want to play a game, then hug or kiss.
Or, ask the kids to stop playing games.
If that's not the case, I'll be irritated by the game, not you!

It's just one way of thinking, but I hope it helps...

hmm...

I read it in conjunction with the previous consultation.
It's been a while since the last time, but according to what you've told me this time, you've been able to endure this difficult situation for about 2 more years.
What can I say... it must have been hard, it must have been painful. You must be feeling lonely and tired already.

Well, I read it and thought about it, but sorry, I can't think of a plan like this.

It's common, but should you use your ability to go back to your parents' house, or have someone you trust, or someone who is likely to listen to what your husband says come in between.
I have a feeling that it's really difficult between themselves.

But was your husband like that from the beginning? Or was there a time when something changed?
It is said that they also have children, but wasn't there a time when they were able to spend time together as a caring and loving couple?
Is there anything that comes to mind? If you're most aware, it's probably already working in response to that...

However, it would be unbearable to continue making painstaking efforts in response to the current situation.

Why don't we try that? Why don't you try it this way? Rather than recommending it from this limited information, please think carefully about why this happened, and if there is anything you can think of, let me know, and it may be a hint for something again.

Anyway, I hope you don't overdo it and break your heart... Please take care of yourself.

Maybe my husband is the eldest son

Good evening. I also read the previous question and answer again.
The title “My Husband Might Be the Eldest Son” means your eldest son. son. When I read it again, I have the impression that it's “a well-made mother, relentless son.” It's been a long time, though.
I don't know the details, but during his “marriage” with you, he moved from husband to son position (a child was born, and you changed from wife to mother, but he is relentless). Or he changed his mother from his birth mother to you. That's my impression.
In the previous “thank you,” it was written “masked couple until their children come of age...”, but maybe that's really good. Just expect it to add up a little bit of money.
Let's do our best for another 20 years. If “I don't want to change.” However, it seems impossible to just “stand up for my husband.” Or rather, I think you can spend a peaceful time if you stop it.

We are asking too much of each other.

You and your partner are demanding too much from others. Also, I live too much worrying about other people's evaluations. Since you ask your partner in the first place, don't they talk about housework and even your system? I feel like I've read a sentence, and it seems like I have children and I'm spending my life without any trouble, so there's no need to worry about anything. In the first place, you don't have confidence in what you did. I want to say to you, “Be confident. There's no right answer. Your actions right now are on their way to the right answer.”
Even when I listen to what my partner says, on the contrary, “the room hasn't been dirty lately.” or “You've gained a little bit of weight.” It's decided to say that. Complaints about marital life are stories to talk to people. But this one I'm listening to is funny at first, but I don't like it. But that complaint is just a change in the form of love. Please create your own shape without being misled by what the media or critics say. Just the fact that life is difficult is an extreme argument, but please understand it. It's painful to live. If you remember that before you die and your suffering is fully replaced, you will feel that suffering is beautiful. When I thought I might die, my suffering became a fulfillment of my life and I had a fun life, and “My life isn't going to be a biography.” It felt so beautiful that I thought it was.
A little more, next time I asked my partner, “I wonder if they can say this.” If you act while thinking, it will gradually become more interesting. The feeling of imagining the other person's feelings will continue to be applied to any kind of work.