I read it.
You're having a really hard time, aren't you?
And that suffering is making you feel like you're in hell, isn't it?
I sincerely understand your painful feelings.
We humans are living by being given life to each other.
And each one is given a lifespan.
I sincerely ask the Buddha to take full life and be greeted by the Buddha when you leave this world.
Namu Amida Buddha, Namu Amida Buddha, Namu Amida Buddha
When you have reached the end of your life, Amitabha Buddha, Kannon Bosatsu, Seishi Bosatsu, and people close to you will always welcome you.
Until then, please be kind to Nembutsu so that you can welcome me promptly with all your heart.
Please keep quiet about Nembutsu from the bottom of your heart, and just keep quiet.
Your Nembutsu voice and your thoughts will surely reach the Buddha. Please don't worry.
Whichever way you lead, the country of the Buddha, the Pure Land of Paradise is a world without any suffering. All people will be freed from that suffering, and foolish hearts of greed, greed, and anger will disappear. Then, they have a pure heart and become a Bodhisattva and Buddha while listening only to the Buddha's teachings.
The Buddha will always save you no matter what.
I sincerely pray to the Buddha that you will take good care of your life from now on while being nenbutsu, and that you will quickly pass away under the Buddha.
Namu Amida Buddha