I don't like reflecting on my mistakes and moving on to the next action.

Hello, Himawari-san.

I saw it as a failure such as “not being able to do it as planned.”
Also, you yourself said, “Thinking about why you failed is troublesome, and I don't want to do it.”

Maybe you haven't made a real mistake.
... if it's really not painful, you'll have no choice but to fix it even if you don't like it.

For example, let's say you “drank too much.” So much so that I was hospitalized. Why did I drink so much that I went to the hospital? There hasn't even been a really dangerous situation until now, so they probably drank it... Maybe Himawari-san can afford that too.

So why can we afford that?
It's probably thanks to the people around me. Or it's because you're only left to the extent that you can recover even if you make a mistake.

I was “drinking too much” earlier. If I were to go to the hospital myself, I might just be bothered by my family.
So what if “while driving, you run over a person due to lack of confirmation of pedestrians”?
The people around me won't help me. If you make a mistake, you can't recover. But I have no choice but to drive... so I drive carefully. I remember a quiet experience. The pause will stop.

The cost when you failed and the cost when you prepared are multiplied by the balance. Then, the former one is heavier... you know, right?

As mentioned above, you seem to be doing a proper self-analysis. It's been thought through to that point, isn't it?
However... if you can't think for yourself, let someone else think for you. That's because there must be such a thing. That's because there must be times when it doesn't feel stiff.

The same mistakes are repeated over and over, and it's a hassle to think about that... well, it hurts my ears. Exactly about me. I think that's what humans are. Incidentally, suffering is repeated, and that is called reincarnation (rinne) in Buddhist.
It means that we live every day as an equal human being, experiencing the suffering of reincarnation. Don't worry. Just here and now

“It must not stay this way”

Being able to think so is pretty close to Buddha (enlightenment). Rather, it's like buying a ticket to Enlightenment. I have my ticket in my hand, so after that, please get on the train at Himawari-san's timing.

First, why don't you spend a different day from yesterday?

Here are three solutions.
① “I'll do it, Uttori method”
Dare to submit it within the deadline, keep promises with others, and perfect yourself.
It's a method of taking everything as a mission, doing it right, and feeling the “sense of accomplishment” as “happiness.”
The goal is not to be charted or evaluated, and it is a bold stance that “blunts” on oneself who does it flawlessly.
The purpose is to make a sense of mission accomplishment a habit and enjoy small joys.
When you actually try it, you can get joy that you didn't notice because you're proud of who you can do it.
[Even if it is a group of thin roots, if they take root well, flowers that won't break will bloom]

② “Don't give me instructions, Queen's method”
What happened cannot be undone.
Evaluating others is just a cry, paon, gawang.
Laugh at best, I won't show you my troubled complexion, right?
failure? mistake? Whether it's a failure or not is something I will decide when I overcome it.
If I had a laugh at the end, my dirty past is also part of the stairway to glory.
[Wouldn't it be nice if it didn't bloom, you're an artificial flower, ohoho.] ←Not recommended (-_-me)

③ “I can't leave it like this, shameful method”
This is a time to become aware of the dangers and adverse effects of egocentric personality and ego.
People who have been blessed with the opportunity to spend their time the way they want, from childhood to school to the present day, think that the world will turn out the way they want to, to some extent, and they don't like being instructed by people.
It's simply an increase in ego, opinion, and ego. They are the type that is disliked in the world.
You will one day end up suffering as if you were burnt by the dangerous idea that only you are right and that the other 99.999 percent of people are wrong.
However, the fact that you were consulted here means that they are trying to change little by little, so it's a good opportunity “chance.”
It's not about books or knowledge, but about trying to suffer a lot with a raw “ego” that wriggles within oneself.
Buddhism also has an aspect that it was built by people who thoroughly experienced the suffering of greed, ignorance, and ego inherent in human beings, and were saved from there.
Only those who have experienced the “futility” of human beings can save many people.
You don't have to force it to bloom. Right now, it's also important to be familiar with the bud season.
[If there is a lot of fertilizer to worry about, the flowers that bloom will also be big]
Please make splendid sunflowers bloom.

I'm not saying it's been as long as the teachers wrote.

Now, in response to your actions, you yourself say, “Since you won't change it, you will fail again, and it will only make you suffer. What should I do?” I've realized that, so this is an opportunity to change direction for the better.

The rest is whether you “do” or “don't” go for it.

well... right now.

What makes you change...

　To Himawari-san
Actually, that's the case with me. that's ridiculous.
“I can't keep my paperwork due, I can't keep my promises to people, and I can't spend my day according to my plans.” I often make mistakes like that. Every time I do that, I reflect on it. I think the downside is that there are quite a few shapes. Actually, if it's that level of failure, there's no problem no matter how many times you repeat it.
Try going abroad. Being able to get a discount due to delays in transportation, souvenir shops, etc., is something that has no value for time or goods. There are places where Japanese people are too polite. It's a rare country in the world. You're young, so go out into the world. If you do that, you'll understand whether Japan is good or bad.
I also visited temples in Germany, France, and Italy for 3 months alone during overseas training at Motoyama. There are many things to learn, but what I was most aware of was the goodness of Japan. Even now, I discover the goodness of Japan every day.
There is a saying “let go and pick it up,” but when I think of you who are solidified in a small place, I want you to go to various places and spread your way of thinking because you are younger now.
It takes time and money to do that. This is where I find work and work. If you do that, the number of people who think of it as a failure like the one above will decrease, and I think they will also reflect on it. I don't know if I'm a student or a working person from this sentence, but I really can spread my way of thinking right now.
Gassho
P.S. From this sentence, I can't see the failure story you have experienced concretely. Please post a question about what really bothers you.

You said it's a problem, so I think they're still aware, and I think it's cute...

I'm in my 20s, so I'm sorry for my mistakes, but if you keep on talking to me, you may lose trust, and you may even lose important people who help and support you.

Humans, this, and everything are difficult to handle perfectly, though.
I'm already an adult, so I have to make an effort to be able to make my own decisions and promises properly without being bothered.

Similar behaviors can be seen in developmental disabilities.
Why don't you consult a specialist?
Also, even when I search on the internet, there are people like that
Let's be careful about this kind of thing in order to blend into social life
It's listed.
In Japan, it is said to be around 10% of the population.

To Himawari-sama

I read it
Did they fail this time?

Why don't you think about it after you've made a mistake?
Why don't you think of something more fun?

When I asked a psychologist
“The heart, that person's thoughts, attract that event”
That's right.
Why don't you think about fun things and attract fun events? Gassho