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I'm complaining that he committed suicide in front of his home until the 49th day of his suicide

People who committed suicide 10 days ago were asked questions about whether they could go to heaven or attain Buddhism.

This time, while drinking alcohol in front of my wife, who committed suicide, I thought almost every day, “Why did you do this. That's stupid.” My mother also committed suicide, so “the bereaved family who committed suicide said it was absolutely useless to commit suicide because it was painful, didn't they?” I'm complaining in front of Toshitsuma's spirit. While crying a lot, though.

After that, he always said, “You've never seen me cry like this before. If you think it's bad, be sure to attain Buddha during the memorial service on the 49th and go to heaven. I'll go later too, so please wait for me.” I'm saying that.

Does saying such things (complaints, etc.) to the spirit of a wife who died by suicide prevent the wife from becoming a Buddha due to trouble? I love my wife. What should I do now to attain Buddhism? That's all. We ask for your answers.

3 Zen Responses

First of all... please stop drinking alcohol.

 Please refrain from drinking alcohol... but please “stop drinking” by borrowing help from those around you (public institutions, medical institutions, or private support groups). Please be sure to stop it...
If you leave it like this, your mind and body will definitely break down. We're in the middle of it now.
If you read this answer and your anger has already crept up, then that is exactly what I am saying.
I am aware that this is extremely disrespectful.
There is “absolutely no doubt” that his wife has attained Buddhism.
This is a promise made by the Buddha called Amida Nyorai, and it's an oath, so don't worry at all. You can rest assured.
Also, your wife cares about you as a Buddha precisely because she was born with a Buddha.
why? This is because the Buddha is a merciful person who cannot help but to do so and cannot leave you alone.
Whether you believe in the Buddha or not, there is no change in the precious function of the Buddha that I just mentioned.
The effect of one-sided mercy for you and for me is “the reason why the Buddha is the Buddha.”
I think what you can and should do is “stop drinking alcohol anyway.”
Please ask people around you for help. There's nothing to be ashamed of.
Also, I think your wife will be really, really happy to see you stop drinking alcohol.
Please, please stop drinking alcohol for my wife. It's fine to be arranged by the Buddha even after that...
 

Please say as much as you want.

A word expressed as Tetsuya's complaint...
It felt like a word of love to me.

I felt the love overflowing from the heart of a man who loves his wife.

I was also asked to take a look at the previous question, and you were planning to go through life with your wife.
It would be foolish to just go alone.

“I wish I had been a little more careful then...”
“Why couldn't you be more kind?”

There's probably a lot more left to be said.
If you have something to say, just say it.

As the monks who answered say, the wife will attain Buddhism.
It's not a hindrance.

I just think, are you sleeping well?
Aren't you also drinking alcohol intermittently?

Kokyoji is explaining the importance of abstaining from drinking, but...
I agree.

If you love your wife, please take care of yourself.

Please do a memorial service with all your heart

I read it.
Your sorrow must be really deep. I think it's a sorrow we can understand. Maybe it's unavoidable for you to feel that way and tell your wife. Maybe it's something you can only understand when the two of you are in a relationship.

From the bottom of my heart, my wife will correctly accept the Buddha's guidance, and I will ask the Buddha to be at peace with the Buddha from the bottom of my heart, and I will be quiet with Nembutsu.
Namu Amida Buddha

I think that the wife will always accept the Buddha's guidance and feel at ease under the Buddha.
And they watch over you and everyone around you.

Your sorrow must be very deep. The wife must have had very deep feelings too.
First of all, I would like to ask you to make the memorial service with all your heart.

And I sincerely hope that you will slowly look back and reflect on your wife's thoughts, relationships with you, and connections with the environment and people. I think it's very painful, but I think that by looking back little by little, you can look at your own future life while feeling important to you.

I would like you to rebuild your relationship by looking back on the relationship while holding a memorial service little by little.

I read it again. If you don't mind, why don't you join the “Life Gathering” etc. for the families of suicide survivors that I also participated in. Today, too, it is being held once a month on the 4th Thursday at Tsukiji Honganji Temple. Actually, it's just about to begin.
It's open every month, so please join us if you like. We are always waiting for you.
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